Tibetan Monk

I feel like somesort of Tibetan Monk ... maybe Nepal monk ... I dunno ... But I officially had an awful haircut in Melbourne. For the price of $15, I can't complain much ... I look myself in the mirror and had thoughts of actually hanging myself to death. How could I do such a bad thing to my hair! Who would have thought, Andrewkin FINALLY have bad hair cuts! Never recalling having bad ones back in Malaysia ...

Those were the good times in Malaysia. Never had to worry about getting a bad hair cut or hair style. Er Ge is always there to make me look fabulous! Noel's skills were fantastic. My regular barber only charge a RM12 for a clean cut. By the way, I did mention clean cut (safest hair cut in the WORLD i pressume!!!) to the hair"cutter" today. Wouldn't call her a barber or stylist. Is it me or her??? Now, I look like some Juvenile Kid ... even worse, prison escapee ...



Urg ... Maybe I should have just spend more on the haircut, $30 is not that bad an idea ... but ... $30 x 2.7 = RM 81 ... A HAIRCUT THAT COST THAT MUCH???? ...

*andrewkin starts crying ...

Be prepared!

Be prepared on August! BE PREPARED!

WHY? Cos ... while Britney is busy divorcing again, screwing up her parenting skills and singing motherhood songs, Christina is going to challenge the Jazz, Blue and Soul legends ... Check it out man!

extract fron www.christinaaguilera.com

Christina Aguilera Goes Back To Basics, New Album Due August 15th
Paying tribute to the music that inspired her, pop icon Christina Aguilera will release her third studio album, Back To Basics, August 15th on RCA Records. A modern take on vintage jazz, soul and blues from the 1920s, ‘30s and ‘40s, the album is wildly inventive with a throwback style creating a sound that’s gritty and raw. Back To Basics reunites her with producer Linda Perry as well as creating new collaborations with producers such as DJ Premier.

The sexy first single, “Ain’t No Other Man,” produced by DJ Premier and Charles Roane, is set for release on June 12th. It will be world-premiered on the MTV Movie Awards on June 8th.

“This is a concept album that follows a bold, set vision,” stated Aguilera. “The touchstones are Billie Holiday, Otis Redding, Etta James and Ella Fitzgerald.... what I used to call my ‘fun music’ when I was a little girl.”

Back To Basics utilizes an orchestra, choir, string quartet and jazz horns, as well as techniques that offer a vintage sound and sensibility. “I Got Trouble” incorporates a scratchy blues feel, while “Candy Man” recalls the tight harmonies of all-girl groups from the ‘30s and ‘40s “Save Me From Myself” is an emotionally naked, raw-sounding song dedicated to her husband. “Thank You,” dedicated to her fans, features DJ Premier splicing bits of “Genie In A Bottle” with fan voicemail messages. Also sure to appeal to Aguilera fans is the risqué song “Nasty Naughty Boy” (which has a ‘20s burlesque feel) and the club track “Still Dirrty,” assuring her fans that she’s “still got the nasty in me, …still got that dirty degree…still got that freak in me.”



AGH!!! I LOVE HER! She's unstop-able....nyek nyek nyek!

What day is today ???

Talkin' to myself and feelin' old
Sometimes I'd like to quit
Nothin seems to fit
Hangin around
Nothin to do but frown
Rainy days and mondays always get me down

What I've got they used to call the blue
Nothin's really wrong
Feeling like I don't belong
Walkin around
Some kind of lonely clown
Rainy days and mondays always get me down

Carpenters


It's not even raining ... and it's not even a monday. But why do I feel so down? Been playing that song over and over again. It felt so right! Right time! Right place! Sigh* I think it's the stress, unproductive week and the missing fun-activity with friends. Burwood is really boring ya know! Nothing around ... Nothing! Now, I am sitting in a pile of research papers, bulks of thick books, scattered papers and in a messy room rushing 3 major assignments all due next week along with a short exam. Can things get any worse???

There goes the weekend ... again!

I need a break. Anyone coming to Melbourne? Bring a rainbow for me ya ... desperately need one!

The Ugly Body

Goffman, some sociologist freak said that your body represents your identity and it can govern the way you feel and work. So, if I apply Goffman to my body, the formula works;

Unproportionate body + low confident = andrewkin

I hate my body. It's too thin. I have broad shoulders and thin arms. The only muscle attached to it at the moment looks like some miserable sweet potato. I took off my shirt today and I saw horrible ribs underneath (or is it beside) my small, untoned and flesh-LESS chest. Can you believe it? The ribs are visible to the point where you can count them! What happened to the ideology that you get fat in Australia? I definetely eat more than I used to in Malaysia and made a point to consume more meat than usual ... but I still look like Jake Skellington from Nightmare Before Christmas.

AND

I do exercise. I try lifting 6kg of milks everyday hoping that the arm won't shrink. I push up everyday! I sit up frequently. Not high-intensity ones, but some is better than none right? I am obviously wrong! Everything just fall flat! Things couldn't get worse until I saw my flat, square, "cometed" butt. I thought butt are suppose to be round??? I think mine was previously fine but since when it got squared? or maybe I was born with a square butt??? *andrewkin looking worried. Was it the Body Balance I do twice a week? No right? If toning and restructuring your posture means getting a square ugly butt, I am officially taking Body Balance off my exercise routine! Will try on lunges and squats. If the lunges and squats doesn't help - I am signing up for gym again. Gotta waste money, if you wanna look good ...

Shucks ... I think I should just rename my blog to andrewkin-ramblings-with-complains

Dear VV Part II @ Chapels

It's so hillarious! I know I am not suppose to keep grudges, but I really need to just burst out, explode, open the pandora's box, express, share ... just anything! I assume most of you had read the previous post on my group member, double V. Erg! I tell you! We met up yesterday at Chapel St (where we did our project observation on shopping males) and she was 1 hour 45 minutes late! Where the hell she came from? Perth???? I was obviously furious. Sasha (the other group member) had to leave. I understand why Sasha couldn't stay! The meeting was only for an hour! God dammit. Blacks! (Am not being racist but almost every single Africans i worked with end up giving me shits). Anyone wants to prove me wrong?

Not only she was late! She came with only her handbags. What??? We were suppose to discuss GIRL! try doing notes and pen! Guess what??? I end up giving a solo presentation to her about what I've done as if she is the lecturer. She was amazed. What ticked me off was the part she said "Andrew dear, I think you are overdoing it". What was that suppose to mean? You are the mortified pussy not moving your arse to get work done! *PIST I tell you! Pist!

AND

She even accidentally blurted out "I went shopping yesterday ... and she stopped". Then, trying to find a lame excuse to escape the embarassment, she said " I went out and take pictures for our assignments". She expected me to not give her a death look after her "valid" reason for shopping. Yes ... I didnt give her a death look, but I gave her a disgusted stare. During the entire almost-5min-stare, she presented me her work. Her invinsible, only verbal, with no reference to what so ever authors or unit readings presentation. I thought - and you got the guts to say I overdid my work?

I was mad. I was pissed. I really felt like punching her in the face, push her down on the floor and just do bodystep on her.

Why is killing and murder a sin?

Enough of her. I did have a great day yesterday. She was the only spoiler. Let me brief you what I did. I don't think you guys want to read a novel entry anyway. So ... Here goes

1. I bought a new crumpler "glamour" bag (yes! that is what their tag says!!! - which is actually a sling bag) and digital camera pouch (future digital camera pouch :P - It was on sale!!! *andrewkin smiles innocently) . The western lawn and The sporty guy pouch. So in total, I have 6 crumplers! hehehe
   

2. Me and Eva bump into a gay guy couple holding hands. They look so cute until a stranger walk up to them and started lecturing them about gays with god and gays with humanity and it goes on and on and on, literally embarassing the gay couples in the public. Obviously, none of the public really cared what she said ... Most of them look at her in disgust ( Why is killing a sin again? )
   

3. I got a wonderful 1 hour of leg massage from Eva! Damm she was good. Who ever that married that bitch get to enjoys free massages. She's so darn good! Awesome bitch!

That would be about it. Now, if you excuse me - I have to go "overdo" my assignments

Dear VV

Some people are just plain fucked-up lazy mortified pussy and have no idea how to work as a group with a sense of responsibility and a little commitment. Don't they get it; that a group project requires group work. It's not your individual assignment where you can screw up and not care about it! God-dammit - we share the same bloody marks! Don't you ever feel guilt and remorse for ending up causing low grades for your other team members who definetely does more work than you!!! Get a grip - you work, you had other things to do, you have 3 assignments due on the same week, you had no time for it and you have a thousand and one reasons! Darling - WE ALL DO! ... Well, I bet you had time letting your boyfriend screw your pathetic pussy most of the time which you could have used to call your group mates, discuss and get some work done!

Another point - time management girl! How could a smart girl like you end up having your brains placed on your knee? I hope god pity on you and start sending impulse signals to your misplaced brain and remind you that the unit requirements are difficult, the presentation is 6 days away, you are backed schedule for 2 weeks with no work done and the lecturer is warning you about the consequences! You took my reminder and planning as bullshit so don't go crying and complaning why the lecturer did not give us an extension. SAVE YOUR explanations and start squeezing your brains. Skip work like I care. Stay up all night to finish up your late work. Stop getting fucked and maybe get some work done. Don't make me send you another SMS that will certainly hurt your feelings again. I have no guilt in doing it twice. Call me evil. Call me violent. Call me anything you wish. You deserve some motivation anyway!

What's with stupid group members. Am so freaking unlucky this semester.

Grapes anyone?

I am not a fan of grapes. Find them troublesome. But today, I've changed my mind. I started eating grapes - those seedless green ones and those big big red ones. So far, I tasted almost every single grapes available in Australia. What to do, I am living with 2 girls who cannot resist grapes and love having almost every single grape species stocked up in the fridge. Believe or not, there are at least 3 types of grapes in the fridge at one time - green, red and dark purple. What is with girls and grapes anyway???

Updates - my life have been upside down lately. Been trying to get a grip of myself most of the time. I am mostly lost in my own world, looking into a space, suffering from insomnia and not to mentioned - covering my emptiness and blank mind with a cheerful smile. Ain't want my housemates to worry about me! But have been better after I hand in an assignment, spend some quality time chatting with Kenny, being with the ever-happy Eva and Grace and of course the most important - talking to mum on mother's day. It was an uplift.

By the way, what's with me and affirmation from people around me? It's like I am so insecure and unstable ... sigh

That aside, we've finally bake our own chocolate chip cookies. It was delicious. Definetely better than the muffins. Alot of hardwork - but it was well paid off. Also, I bake myself a huge cookie! See See!

Same Song, Same Tune

The same song plays,
The same tune sings,
How can you run so far and finished the end,
Hugging loneliness while admiring the simple moment again.

Think back of nostalgic recurring events,
it happens with the first, it happens with the second,
it happens with the last.
It happens with the last.

Hate felt when happened
Thoughts rise;
They never understand.
They never chose to.

Moment dies,
And as the same song plays,
The same tune sings,
Just like the same old times,
Being left and pushed to a corner,
where the same song plays and the same tune sings.
Believing they never chose to understand
It is never worth the moment.
Never worth the time.

The promised freedom faded,
blured,
muddied,
into maturity where acceptance is fragile.

Let's just live with it
Let the same song plays
Let the same tune sings
Let it naturalise, as I will never understand, never learn,
For it happened for a reason,

The pain sharpens in reality,
Reality felt.
Back to the beginning,
Still being put into the corner of my own.
Still playing the same song, the same tune,
Just like the past.

None understand.
None changed.
It's the same.
Reality felt.

Major 4

When you get the major 4; it comes with a nice package labelled;

YOUR SICK!

The ingredients shows; Fever, Flu, Cough and Sorethroat.

Yeah - I am officially sick with all those nasty virus! Am trying my best to heal. So far, my throat is no longer sore thanks to honey, lemon and salt. Hahaha... Will watched on my nose. If by next week, the flu is still as bad - I shall see the doctor ...

Thanks Eva & Grace for the wonderful tender loving care you girls had showered me this 2 days! Hehehe ...

不能和你一起

結束還是原諒　愛永遠擱在遠方
眼神不會說話　只有淚光
你給過希望　怎麼能忘

是你填滿溫暖　讓夢想有了翅膀
教我如何控制　風的方向
讓我每一天能飛到更遠的地方＊ 

不能和你一起　擁有喜悅和悲傷
不管走多遠　步伐都沒有力量
不能和你一起　走往這世界　幸福方向

孤單的身旁少了堅強　只有簡單感傷＃

Have you ever wonder how certain thoughts and mood just get stuck to you the whole time? It's something stuborn that couldn't be shaken off and you can hate it all you want, deny it presense but it keeps on coming back and haunt you ... but everything happened for a reason ... and everything that you wanted that never happened, also has a reason ... am I making any sense?

Am sorry, haven't been myself lately ... Just to let you all know