Monday, December 31, 2007
Looking back, this year was not a bad year. It certainly had some of the worst moments ... ever ... PERIOD! but it was well taken care of. I grew up the most in 2007. I am thankful for every single event that happened this year. It was memorable, fun-mixed-with-sad, filled with self realization and most importantly, eventful - at most time, filled with drama and stories to tell. Some people will never have this kind of life. I am glad I did.
Looking forward in short period, I am going to spend new year's eve shopping with dad, having dinner with dad (pre-booked), be with dad, clean my room and read the book pretentious bitch loaned me. Weird, everyone is away - Mum's in Macau, ErGe's in Taipei, Sis is in KL partying with the huge crowd, everyone is with someone, someone is with everyone and dad is alone ... so I decided to be the good boy and let him treat dinner.
*Actually I have an evil plan ... I need to loan RM200 from him ... *snickering laugh*
Looking forward in a long period, 2009 is going to come and I hope my career will advance like how it did and I certainly hope that I will be able to learn even more ... so,
Happy New Year
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
It is raining outside. Staring into the raindrops, reminds me of 5 years back, how it all started and now, how it all ended. I miss him. Somehow, there is more to the picture than that. Yes, we have been talking, sharing a lil or two. I truly enjoy everything we went through at present moment. All the hurt and pain has caused a turnover effect. I am taking everything positively, even the fact that he will still give up at the end after trying. No expectations, just hope.
I know it is very fragile and I understand that even time would not be able to heal those painful wounds I have caused. A broken-shattered piece of glass will never be the same ever again. Somehow, deep in me – I felt the same for myself. I reckon I will never forgive myself for being so foolish, self-centered and negative.
That said, the storm has resided and no more drama. I am just me, the plain transparent me and being happy is my priority, genuinely happy. I am comfortable now with my own skin, feeling as confident as ever and truthful. I enjoy what I am doing now ... and I have K, along with all my supportive friends who had gone through this journey with an open mind, heart and arm with me ... you know who you are *sobs ...
I enjoy what I am doing now ... and I have K, along with all my supportive friends who had gone through this journey with an open mind, heart and arm with me ... you know who you are *sobs ...
Anyway, thanks ErGe and miaomiao for the beautiful Xmas gift: