It is happening again ,,,

A few more hours and I will be sitting for my first MBA test. I can't help but feel stress. It is not entirely from exam prep but also include other factors. After all, like James said ... who is actually calm when it comes to sitting for an exam the next day?

So I did all I could to reduce the stress rate; eating, finishing my to-do list, revising my studies, learning something fresh from a seminar, trying to talk to a special friend, staying positive and smiling through the day even when I was feeling the storm and heavy rain earlier. Somehow, I do not know why but I felt that something is missing, something is quite not right.

I feel that I should be somewhere attending to someone's need and concern. It's a weird and unspoken feeling but the feeling is very strong and it lingers around me. I certainly can't brush it off but I also know that I can't possible handle the situation because my mind is preoccupied for the exam. I have program my body to prioritize tomorrow because after the module test, I would be on my new job ... and deferring my MBA for a few months. I cannot fail tomorrow's exam. With my "tak apa lah" prep ... I am sure I need all the peace of mind to write 5 analysis within 3 hours...

Here I am, lying on my bed, pondering and worrying on things I cannot control and also something I am not sure of what ... when I could actually study. I can't anyway, my brain is stuffed. Since that's the case, I guess I better just be selfish and hope for the best. Afterall, I still do not know what is going on at the side ... too many loop holes and unanswered callings. I just do not know why I always get tested this way ... given two problems, on a same time and forced to confront them ... what is wrong?

I think I have pre-exam anxiety...

Blogging from class

Blogging from class ... half sick, half conscious, half concentrating in class presentation and half half everywhere. Anyway, I am starving but afraid to eat ... my tongue and mouth is minorly swollen with a bad tummy ache. I am food-phobic but hungry. Ironic eh?

I hope I can get well very soon so that I can get back on track with revision for the upcoming exam, reviewing the new job offer and most important finish off my pending work, including my painting, the VUMBA event planning, photoshoot and etc

I hope I can avoid the hospital ... cross fingers! I am bored!

Which Bow?

I am sick ... kinda like a twitter message. Anyway, I am down with a bad food poison illness and viral infection. Vomit, diarrhea, headache, sleepless night, joints pain ... you name it! What is worst is that I am bed ridden, home quarantined since yesterday morning and my condition only improved a bit. I had to literally skip my MBA presentation today, after a whole lots of prep work for it ... then I may have to watch my diet later tonight during my sister's open house party ... and my mind wonders between accepting or declining a job offer, which is not particularly what I am looking for but does pay the bills ...

Sigh ...

Since I am stressed and was advised by mum not to sleep so much to keep my body "running", I am in front of the computer listening to one of my favorite Madonna's song - Take a bow. I equally fancy Rihanna's version too. I wonder any other song with that title

Here is the video clip ... I remember I was only in primary school when I first watched the video. Absolutely love the "putting on clothes" part. SO GLAM!

Picture from DIY Lightbox

I felt that I hardly post pictures that I take. Anyway, for those who are still a stranger to me, I take photographs ... at times for a living! Harks *pose*

Since I DIY my own lightbox, without the lights and by just using my ready available SB600 flashlight, I tested the box by taking a few pictures. The results were not that bad ... although I failed to achieve the entirely white background I wanted, it did help distribute the lighting as a whole and not strained on flashgun by bouncing off the light from the ceiling. Here are a few pictures I've taken:










Now, I aim to get a nice sturdy tripod and hopefully very soon a multi purpose small aperture lens! Hiak *pose pose*

RING RING RINNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG....

Condo's fire alarm just went off. I am not even sure if it is a real fire emergency, or a fake one. I looked out the balcony and it seems peaceful. No one screaming or frantically moving about. I decide to take a brief walk out of condo and scout to see what the neighbors are up to. No one responded. One neighbor did open his door, looked out worried and smile at me. Then, amazingly he closed his door and went back in ... I think it is a bogus alarm.

So, the alarm goes off about ... hmm ... checking watch, 10 minutes ago and I am here, lying on the comfortable carpet blogging. The phony alarm stopped and I am thinking, what if it was real??? What if the smoke alarm did went off to indicate a fire ...

I would still most likely be taking pictures and blogging? Perhaps? Sigh. How come we (implying to neighbors at condo as well) have such a mentality? I guess we just dread walking down the stairs and rather be burn to death. LOL

Breaking the rules

I finally went to step class! Yeah ... It's been close to 2 years since I last step. Due to my body size, I have resisted temptation from entering the class whenever I see a bunch of peeps turning, swirling and speedily moving on the step board. Today, I broke my vows and shed a few more muscles, hopefully only fats - when I just bluntly joined the Step Intermediate class at gym. It was a last minute thing and it was so much fun. I felt as if my troubles were all stampeded along the choreography. Although my legs are aching from the exercise, nevertheless I felt a sense of achievement. I managed to pull through the sets and enjoyed myself. My personal trainer of course gave me the "look" but he understood that a boy just need to let loose sometime.

Now, I need to find the same satisfaction in weight building. For a moment, I wish I was a different body type since I like cardio so much.

Oprah and BEP 24th season party

Agreed with Oprah, one of the coolest things I have ever seen. I love it! Absolutely thrilled by it. The whole mob!

Sorethroat and Family Guy Season 5

I am sick. I should be twittering or facebooking this line but somehow, I could not bring myself to register an account. I do not know why, but I rather spend my time writing this blog than browsing through the updates in FB. I've seen James and K both spent quality time "FBing" ... and I can't bear myself doing that. I would spend the time going around bashing soldiers and completing the mission, acquiring new abilities, weapon and treasures but not FBing. I am talking about PS2 games.

Anyway ... just wanted to let everyone know that I am not well ... This blog is becoming more lame by the days. Well ... I shall be blogging about something interesting either tomorrow or friday. Keep in touch ...

Apple Tree

Literally have no time to write about anything. Its either I am busy with MBA, or I am busy with something else. Always busy people say. Sigh, I really want some time just for myself. Relight the passion for writing, reading and painting. Can that even happened? Curious ...

I am now lying in my bed, finally resting my head after a non stop 6 hours lecture on human resource and how the implication of different models worked, did not worked, useful, not really useful and in different context, yada yada yada. Really a? Academic must be that analytical one? Not only head pain but eye pain trying to get all the info right ...

Wanting to write a poem ... wrote the first few line, somewhere between the lines of an apple tree ... but now, I am decided to abandon it. Brain dead... Hopefully this mental state doesnt lead to something dramatic or melancholic ... I deserve to be tired too rite?

Mariah eating babies

Had a real laugh yesterday when I was with Eva and Kenny at Honeymoon - Dessert place at One Utama. We were talking about Mariah's new album and of course, Mariah herself. How she never aged since.

Me : How come she never aged a bit one a?
Eva : Botox la!
Me : I believe she injected Botox to her body too lo!
Eva : LOL
Kenny : I think she ate babies
Eva and Me : Haha, that's funny
Kenny : Yeap, she ate babies, once before meal, three times a day!
Me : Maybe that's how she is related to MJ! She ate their babies for him!
Eva : Maybe she ate Angie's babies too! And then Brad Pitt was after her to get his babies back.
Kenny : Hehe
Eva : Then, Mariah said "why are you so obsessed with me?"
Me : HAHA ...That was lame!
Eva : I know!


In store now ... I think ...

See ... meaningless dumb celebrity gossip. That's what you (or at least I) do when you hang out on a weekday. Gosh, I have a life! LOL

Quickie Mid Autumm

Holy cow ... this Saturday is Mid Autumm Festival already! Deng, I so wanna eat mooncakes and plan a gathering with my friends. Sigh, so sad... I miss those days when Gorden hold parties for this. I guess its gonna be a stroll around the part this week. Who am I to kid anyway, I have class till late.

By the way, I feel like reigniting my hobby in painting. Perhaps I can sell my paintings too ... Haha.