Drown

An attempt I promise someone. My first draft ...

I ran under the rain,
Since you left me broken
I push through the tears
Letting it go

The bitterness of sweet memories
Haunting, crushing my skull
The loneliness after years
Left me settled in despair

I drown my heart
Pushing it deeper
Anguish cries, and I cry
I held my soul and let it fade

While it screams, begging
I shut my eyes
Stinging bitterness, and I cry
I held it softly and it stops

It stops, now cold as December
as still as silence and regrets

I broke myself when you fell apart
Since you walked out that door
I lied to myself
Still do, Do you?

Lost and often in fear
I am forced to rip it apart
Seeing you again
Stab the second time, again over and again

Now I cry and drown my heart
Pushing it deeper
Anguish cries, and I cry
I held my soul and let it fade

While it screams, begging
I shut my eyes
Stinging bitterness, and I cry
I held it softly and it stops

It stops, now cold as December
as still as silence and regrets

I can't never will let you leave
I long the embrace from behind, the smile and laughs
We were an item, never thought it will end
There forever in vow, never gone
But you did, without turning back