Hello June, Goodbye May

Amazing how I am still awake at this hour. I mean, it is still early but I have not stopped working since 9am. I didn't know that driving to Singapore this time around could be so tiring. I think it is mainly also because of the weather, the idea that I have to entertain my co-workers and also constantly keeping awake to ensure I minimize risk of accidents.

See, I don't even have coherent sentences formed in this post. I really should be dozing off like my colleague but I have to finish the wee bit of my assignment before hitting the pillows. That said, I dread tomorrow too ... with my plans all closely lined up, traveling bit to do and anticipating some lawyers to advise us on what to do ... I forsee there is little time I can spend to rest at night because I am still like 80% not done for my MBA assignment

Sometimes I wonder why I took up the MBA at such a young age. So much time went into reading, researching and to keep up to the pace my peers are at. I wish I was smarter to be able to take on more responsible and capable roles. Like what Mr Watch said many times, which I have refuse to listen ... have more confident in yourself

Well ... I am now having a leg cramp. I shall continue my studies tomorrow as my eyes are swollen and my stomach pleading me to drink the black sesame soya milk I bought from the nearest 7-11 store.

Thou shall sleep soon. Hello June, Goodbye May

Don't stop the party!

If you want an awesome party with people jumping, clapping hands, raising arms to the sky and putting on the best smiles on their face ... you so gotta invite Black Eyed Peas as performers ... if you can afford. If not, I bet playing their CD and tunes would do too

Been jumping, head banging and literally "fake clubbing" (a term I discover when you pretend your own room is a club's dance floor) since morning spinning all of Black Eyed Peas tracks.



No wonder they are my most favourite group today. Hehe ...

SO ... DON'T STOP THE PARTY!!!

ps - alarm please remind me that I have class in an hours time ok. :-p

Reasons for a better FUTURE!

This piece of article is so important :

I have extracted it from : Damian Murphy Denis Blog

Reading the latest happenings about our country is a pain for many of us. Seeing the kind of filth BN politicians churning day in and day out makes you think that Malaysia is in a state of anarchy.

Would anyone disagree? Politically, economically and socially our nation is sinking lower and it seems we are reaching the point of no return.

We were considered to be a model country at one time but today we are on the way to become the “Next Sick Man of Asia” or the next Somalia.

Can we re-claim our country from these corrupt and good for nothing BN politicians? I say we have too. And we need too.

And we need to do it this coming GE13. Personally, I have 7 good reasons to kick BN out of Putrajaya come GE13:-

1) When BN is voted out you vote out people like Ibrahim Ali, Dr M, Perkasa and the likes. When you vote these people out you too vote out extremism, racism and bigotry from our nation. This is something we need to do as the current regime under Najib has failed to reprimand these racist politicians. In fact, Najib and his crony has been giving tacit support and approval by giving some of the most ridiculous statements in our nations history. Let us remember that “Perkasa adalah Perkakas UMNO” (Perkasa is UMNO's tool).

2) When you vote BN out you vote against corruption. This is a curse our nation has to endure since money politics has become so entrenched in our system. Every contract and business awarded has to be accompanied by a certain cut or percentage for those who walk in the corridors of power. Heard of the 10% men and his allegedly Maika shares? Of course, you have the BMF scandal, Perwaja and the latest PKFZ issue which is the hottest topic today but the current BN government seems to be dragging its feet to take those responsible to court. Why??? We can never expect BN to provide us with good governance as this is such an alien word to this bunch of crooks.

3) When you vote BN out you vote for all that stands for freedom and justice. What justice can a man on the street find for himself whenever his NCR land is taken over by BN cronies? What good is freedom if tomorrow he gets up to find his son has been gun down by the police in the wee hours of the morning? We not only need a dedicated and corrupt free cops/courts but also cops/courts who are able to perform their duty without fear or favor!

4) Vote BN out and you vote out an education system that supports mediocrity and second or third best. Look at our education system which is tainted with racism in the form of Biro Tata Negara (BTN) & quota system for university entry etc. If you look at our schools these days we will not fail to see how the standard has dropped from, let’s say 15-20 years ago to today. Our teachers are not equipped to teach English well and this is causing our future graduates to suffer in the employment market. Yet, BN leaders especially the Education Minister has been giving us excuses after excuses till today and the young ones are the most affected. So, why keep these incompetent BN ministers in power? Get rid of them to redeem our education system NOW!

5) When you vote BN out you vote against the likes of Utusan, The Star, TV3 and many other mainstream media which has been controlled, manipulated and shackled by the powers that be. These newspapers especially Utusan has been spewing lies after lies and are still doing so as their political masters are the ones dictating to them what should be the menu of the week. Responsible journalism is such a foreign word to this big time corporate liars. Their recent report on the Christian state and PM is a case in point! They must be stop at all cost and we are the ones who will do it by bringing down BN in the next GE13.


6) Under BN rule Malaysia is facing a serious brain drain in the last few years. The major factors are the lethargic country's economy, educational opportunities, lack of religious freedom, social inequality and BN's affirmative policy in the form of NEP. These factors has made many young Malaysians fed-up with the current state of affairs and this has brought about the a wave of brain drain which is already affecting our economy today. The best brains in our country feels they are not being appreciated and welcomed as most of them are not of the Bumiputera group. Between 2008 & 2009 a total of 300,000 Malaysians has emigrated overseas just after the 2008 tsunami election. We need to put a stop to this brain drain and the starting point is to get rid of BN and vote in a government which is more inclusive and fair in its administration.

7) When we vote BN out, we vote for a better livelihood for all. And I mean for all and not just for the selected few cronies or the elites. Since the Asian Financial Crisis and Anwar's sacking in the late 1990's our ecomony has never really prospered well. The BN government is planning for another round of petrol price hike come this June 2011. And Najib has the gall to say that subsidy has become an opium to the masses. Little did he realise that corruption and money politics in his own party UMNO is the real opium and the root of all evil!

And the list goes on. I'm very sure sure you have your own reason/s not to vote BN this time around. Do add in and see how long the list goes.

I'm convinced that for our country to move forward we need to put BN in its right place which is OUT of Putrajaya. As of now, I can only imagine Pakatan Rakyat as the only viable party to take over this government.

I have made my decision. How about you?

Will he?

Tears has dried

Clockwork ticked so fast, so swiftly

Seasons ended

Rains are coming

Longing, catched

Right or wrong

Discovery it seems

Like religion, doubtful but comforting

Still waters

No more sulking?

Unsure of future, vows are made

Promises kept, for now we say

Sat, the wind passed

As high as we travel

Fall in pain

For certain

Yet hope for better

The root thrives

Of want and uncertain

Will he bring happiness?

Doubt

Fear

Longing

Love

Wish there was a mute in mind

Will he voice and be heard?

Still as it seen

I want the right path travelled

Pirates Caribbean ... hmmm

This is a bit delayed. I watched Pirates a few days back. Yeap, it was the premier and being a fan of none other than the Captain Jack Sparrow ... I have to say that the movie was not as entertaining as the first three. The great thing or rather what I enjoyed about the movie, At Strangers Tides is probably the mermaid (yeap! naked nasty creatures) and also the Revenge Ship that Blackbeard stirs.

That said, I do like Penelope Cruz but in the movie, I find her character shallow, irritating and under-develop. So, basically she's out of the factor I ended up at the cinema. The story line was fairly poor and I have to say, the movie seems pushy. Pushy in the sense that it is a movie to capitalise on money rather than it is for entertainment. Sad but true!

So will I encourage people to watch the movie? If you are the Pirate franchise fan, then go watch it to relive the funny escapee of Jack. But I would skip it, and probably head to watch Priest, or Something Borrowed.

Blogging w Riri

Revealing my latest addition of lovebies, slashing one of the wishlist items!!! After saving for a mile, here is a pic of me and riri.



I wonder if riri likes dressing up? LOL

I am sick ... I know it! HAHAHA

Blogging on a Monday in May

It is a beautiful day today! Don't know why but at work, I seem to have higher focus in generating new ideas quickly. Also, time seem to be on my side today. It pass quite slow allowing me and my team to diligently quickly resolve all matters on hand

That said, having the luxury to chat on whatsapp occasionally is also quite fun. Kinda add positive vibe to the mood. I just can't wait for movies this upcoming Wed before my schedule is jammed packed for MBA again. Yeap, it is resuming this weekend and hopefully time will fly pass for the next 4 months!

I really want to get my Masters and move on to my next milestone to achieve in life. Some of the lined up are ; learning another language, being able to spend my weekend doing charity, painting, cooking and definitely picking up a sports that has more involvement than just lifting weights, repeating sets and getting all worked up because others are more good looking

That said, lets see how things go.

Hmm ... a storm is gonna hit us again. Urgh, I cannot possibly imagine the traffic jam that will resume. Better rush off to gym. Caoz

Courtship

Courtship. An art of engagement one who fails, ends up alone and quietly pleased. It is really all about taking chances and letting your guard down

If you are seeking a change in life, then it comes with bit of risk and being uncomfortable outside the box. It's a logical term. No argument about it.

Many of us are complaining and seem to live in the second wanted life because of a term, we can't always get what you want. Of course life is filled with changes. Inevitable I must say. But when it comes, where you have to make the decision in life to fit in and change, are you the type that is willing to take chances?

If not, no body will blame you. It is because you are comfortable with your current situation and seek someone to fit in rather than you yourself adapting. The weights are definitely on the other party and too heavy breaks the connectivity, too light seem playful and not serious. Either way, its a ball game that truthfully lies at the other party. Often in this scenario, things get uncontrollable and often ends in blunt sorrow.

If yes, then the ball game is at your court. You now have the rights, power and determination to will the way things turn out. Calculated risk on returns, worthy the time or not? The downfall of this is often over demand and unwilling to change. Come on, its not all about you and you. An engagement of any sort involves two party. So learn to budge at certain intervals and nudge when necessary.

So the next time an opportunity knocks, you can either answer it prepared or just let it run it course and risk success or failure. Just remember that it takes two hands to clap. It doesn't matter how, the sounds need to be heard

Rihanna - Callifornia King Bed

One of Rihanna's best vocal performance, and superbly awesome sad song. Am so connected to this song

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet california wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
---oohhh next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet California wishing on the stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused, when I asked you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

In this california king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King
My California King

In this california king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet california wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California King

CH - Thank you

Things could not have gotten worst. Last 2 weeks, I contracted an allergy itch from post viral infection that has rashes popping out from my skin. Not to mentioned the amount of pimples that has since then scar my facial complexion. Then, the allergy subsided and the skin condition was in repair mode, shedding its skin like no body business. Amount of treatment and lotion I used to prevent the the stinging peeling sensation was none other than irritating.

Just two days ago, while working out in gym - I accidentally pulled some muscles at the back of my neck which resulted in a bad sleep and now the diagnoses of a possible inflame eye due to strains that is connected to the neck.

Despite the never ending bad luck with little sickness threatening my health, I am swamped with projects at work suddenly and with the concurrent crisis management on-going, things are already at its' worse and surely at the wrong timing. Then the dread of going back to MBA classes after a short break just literally blew me off. I am sick ... both physically and mentally

So life sucks for me at the moment

As I sit here with my right eye covered and only using my left eye to interpret the accuracy of my typing, I am so happy that monday was well spent. It was filled with encouragement and to my surprise, friends can sometime shock you with the details they know about you. It could have been a wild guess, but it was good enough for me to lift my chin and face the days ahead.

"You are so strong outside but I know deep down that you are someone who wants a pillar and shoulder to lean on. You are stubborn but you can be persuaded with just small efforts and will from another. Simple to fulfill boy but yet challenging to please"

Great words from the wise CH. Is like he is yin-yang king! He balance every claim so accurately and delicately comfort the truth in a person. I almost cried when the words were uttered but yet he assures me that people should just love the way I am because I am worthy of it. As he held my neck and said softly, you really need to see the doctor - I gave in after hours of procrastination and delay. I gave in because I wanted to listen to him and because he earned every bit of respect from me. He made the effort to be there, notice my depression and wanted to turn me around to prepare for my business trip and upcoming challenges. Now I cried.

I cannot help but feel lucky, honored and loved. The amount of attention put to understand, accept and then sacrificed for a person is nothing but pure bliss. Every single word, crafted was accompanied by action, sincere from the heart and then coated with a tinge of sweetness. I often wonder, how do certain people possess such beautiful skills. Rare it may seems, I felt something that I shouldn't have felt. He doesn't have to do it, but he simply did because he said he just love to care for a person the way the person likes it. I was already tearing inside.

I was vulnerable but yet my stronghold held. He broke the walls, allow himself inside and mend every single piece with caution, dignity and empathy. The Lion was jaded, sleepwalking and swept of his feet. Awed I must say.

He has offered inspiring feedback that has a priceless clarity and with such obvious charms and ability to lead, direct and carefully guide the flow of ideas - he is breathtaking. Daring and direct, he exudes a sense of security and blanket ones from danger of ego, risk of hurt and always patience balancing the right and wrong. The one thing that I admire about him is that he lets his guard down, by just being plainly himself and always remembering that I am also part of his momentarily life presently. There were no ego, no pride and no qualms about it. It was just a simple person who constantly reminds you how much you meant to the world, friends and loved ones around.

He was not only saying things to make a person feel good, but literally help the person recuprate back into reality with both logic and emotions. A great combination and definitely something hard to pick up but it is surely something I want to learn, keep and harvest

I must say this is one hell of a person! I not only respect people who behave like this, but truly capable of falling in love just by the single click he sends. It is fortunate that he is taken because he is able to shed his strength onto the next generation and prove to be a great head of the family.

Thus, I've learned many new things today. For one, I cannot distant myself anymore from people like this just because I envy what they have and own, a to die for relationship. I cannot punish myself to settle with second best. Two, is hope and the desire to love again, and be loved equally back the way it should be ... the way it makes me feels whole and true

I hope with all the trouble I put him through today, he will still find me as a true friend.