Lemongrassboy

Ramble on em ... >?

2012-02-11T00:07:00.003+08:00

Another week had flew past. It is amazing how the year 2012 is just glimpsing by so quickly.

That said, have you ever wonder - what you are doing in life is ever the best thing or right thing? I know some of you guys are probably gonna be like "here he goes again, yapping away about life" ... but well, I just had some really tough time this past few weeks and to be honest, I do ask myself that question every time I look outside my window or when I listen to some songs, or when I look myself in the mirror and still wondering where all the workout went?

I am sure people like Kelly or Adele (quoting since they are the both latest no1 billboard singers now), are doing something right ... inspiring others, inspiring the industry and inspiring themselves.

So, here I sit on my bed, with one dimly lighted corner and having some fantastic music blasting at the background trying to grasp reality and write about some experiences that I encountered in the past few weeks. Did I inspired someone? Did I want to feel that I inspired that someone? Which is more important? Hmm.... I guess I never understood how people act these days - no matter how much I try to know lately - it seems to be knocking on doors that will never opened. I am sure it is the last time.

Amazing how much you can know a person in two months, and then how much protection you need to cast from yourself. It will get violent, my subconscious mind warns me. When more personal comes into the picture and the figures hit in, performance are being evaluated ... I will find myself in positions where I thought it would be ok, but it is not.

I mean, afterall even after two whole years, and a whole lot of compromises and deep conversations - it is still hard to understand a person's true form... I am either in denial or I am just the one-sided person who cares a lil too much and show a lil too much.

But well, humans are like that anyway. Come new toy or new topic of interest, the whole initial foundations are flushed away. It is always the initial part that is interesting and after some sessions, you either categorized that person as "omit-able responsibility" or "listed for companionship". I think in most cases of today's ever dynamic environment, people are opting for "mortar relationship". You fire a canon, bursting into smaller units of pellets only to find that you hit randomly at targets hoping one will be the best you will ever hit.

To be honest, what I am saying is that people can be really superficial these days. But saying it is one thing, being in it is another. How come people can keep hobbies and passion for certain "thing" so loyal and unconditionally love'em but when it comes to relationship or friendship - it is different? One wise man will answer me - people change ma. Then wouldn't the people himself change his interest and hobbies too? Ironic equation, undeniably irritating

While others enjoy this night ... I probably feel indifferent. Sigh... I am getting bored rambling. Ending the post la ... Lazy to write. Just heard my neighbour's kid fell down to the ground. A lot of crying happening now. Hate to write in this environment ...

My holiday weekend in JB

2012-02-06T22:15:00.003+08:00

Oh my it is been so long since I wrote something. I wonder if anyone still reads... I only realised that after getting back today, just an hour ago. I didn't mean to abandon my blog, but come to think of it - maybe I did neglect it.

I had some time these few days. Since its holiday and I was actually stationed back in JB for the weekend, I spent many hours watching Bleach, cleaning the house and actually just doing laid-back stuff. That said, I did a few interesting things this weekend:

GYM

I went to a community-ala-neighbourhood gym that allow pay by entry usage just to test the facilities and machine. I have to say that it is nothing compared to the "franchise giants" back in KL but relatively, the machines are good enough for proper weight lifting and training. The interesting thing is that, everything else is pretty much standard. You get free weights area, cardio machines and the normal weight-pull-push stuffs. You get standard groupies helping and motivating each other to do more sets and reps. You occasionally get girls going about the cardio treadmills and trying out the assistance machines.

The interesting new experience for me was actually the temperature. Gym is hardly equipped with enough aircond. Am not complaining, because I think it helps actually for the body to push even harder. That said, I realize I can concentrate and work out better too. Perhaps it is crowd pressure. Everyone in the gym actually looks like they are serious about working out, and it shows in their back, shoulder, arms, legs ...

So, I officially sign up for a 3 months package deal. It is not that bad really, the memership fee is around rm80p/month ... and if I go for the yearly deal ... it would be rm58 p/month. And that is the best gym in town. LOL ... wonder if there are cheaper options :P

BOWLING
I had my first bowling in Singapore yesterday and my first bowling in JB today. I guess that is what you usually do here because most of the lanes are packed with people. Actually waited about 30-45minutes for a lane. The experience was of course thrilling because it is the first time that I exercised twice a day, gym then bowling. Ok, maybe many of you do not consider bowling as a sport but really! flexxing the biceps, focus and swinging bowling balls are not exactly a walk in the park, especially when you are playing with pros.

I cannot help but feel that my performance was quite ameteurish due to the fact that most of the bowling balls do not fit my "fingers". I am really conteplating getting a ball custom made for my own but that would easily be another RM500. Should I? or Should I not?

JAPANESE
Strangely, I am also picking up the skill to converse in Japanese. Although I am not hiring any teacher yet to tutor me, I am keen to actually attend language classes. Now, the barrier of entry now comes into my mind. Where the **** can I get this center. Apparently, I need to work harder to locate this language center because I don't think I can self teach myself to proper expression and communication standards required for this language. That said, I am starting the basics on my own and probably will buy a book with CD/AUDIO assistance. Any advise which is good?

To top it up, of course my anime watching helps abit. hehe ... SO DES NE!!!

...

Funny that I wrote all of this. I actually wanted to write about something else behind my head but after 15 min of typing, I realize I strayed from my intended post. Hmm... Maybe I shouldnt dwell ito that topic yet. Dont think it is healthy. So, here I go ... probably wasted your time reading my crap. Sorry...

My First CNY week back to KL

2012-01-29T23:21:00.008+08:00

I have to say that this year's CNY celebration has been nothing but fun fun FUN! It is the first year that I actually "commute" or "travel" back to my hometown for the celebration. This made the family reunion even more special than usual.

Then, meeting my aunts and grandma to only have them shower me with so much love and attention is literally wrong to say that I am not loved. Then, it was also the first time I actually did nothing but pure sleeping, eating and skipping gym for the week. To add more pleasant surprises, I have also received my first ever ang pao from my close friend who just gotten married. Her house is stunning! Love the walk-in wardrobe. Ending the holiday, I spent most of my time with friends. To have them walk in my life is like having received a medal or award for life time achievement. Appreciate you guys lots and thank you for having me around even though I no longer physically am available.

Starting off the new year, last minute shopping

Had my sisters to company me for the last min shopping, and the ever famous prosperity limited time only meal at MCD

The CNY eve dinner w family

Mum and sister posing w their new bags on 1st day CNY

Just cam whoring

Just cam whoring again

Just cam whoring with my dog, Tikus

Korean Lunch with YeeYee and DaDa - got a funny Ang Pao too

Pleasant visitor from Singapore, Dim Sum w family @ Puchong

One of my favourite picture, look like some family drama TV series poster

CNY Pai Nien @ Trix new home. R5!

Steamboat with the Boys, then we went clubbing. Awesome night!!!

Then just a few minutes ago, my family and I had a CNY dinner which also coincide with my cousin brother's birthday. It was so joyful and comical to have both the goofy him and his witty brother constantly embarking on conversations that are both hillarious and stomach bloating from laughing too much.

Sisters at the CNY reunion dinner with our aunts and uncles @ Friends, Kota Kemuning

Happy birthday bro!

Cousins. Some are missing ...

Overall, I think this is a great start of the year. May all the good things come rolling more and since it is the 7th day of CNY (which is also the day of everyone's birthday), HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND HAPPY BURFDAY PEEPS!

Now to chatup with a distant friend :-)

Jessie J - Domino

2012-01-22T13:18:00.002+08:00

I've always like EURO POP more. Apparently their tunes are more addictive. So, the latest would be Jessie J - Domino

BTW, Happy CHINESE NEW YEAR ...

Interest

2012-01-18T18:44:00.003+08:00

The term clearly defined by many dictionaries or scholars as the epitome feeling raised of wanting to learn or know or bond or connect or curious or worry or what ever under sky you called it, to someone or something is quite interesting.

I still find the term amusing because in today’s relevance, the term needs to be coiled with two other important word : determination and perseverance. So, I am getting on to a relationship? Nope, you guys got it wrong. Actually it is in every aspect ... let it be interest in someone, interest in a hobby, interest in a new found investment, interest in a fetish perhaps? Or even to put matters in a complicated way because I tend to love that, interest in the disinterested.

While I am munching my dinner, remembering a friend told me to chew more ... I am now in the interest of chewing my food longer in the perception that the amylase from my saliva will digest the carbs and turn it into fats or mass for my thin lean frame. That interest probably will not last

Then I thought about work. It has only been less than 2 months since I started my new job down south here and already the entire company is tagging me with names, more commonly known as small boy and the chosen one. In their interest, I seem like the boy who knows. Their interest in my “quick” change look, my conversation topics, my jokes and some have deep interest in my perception on life as well as demeanour can be quite amusing and entertaining. Not complaining, but wonder when these interests will fade

Interest from other people has always been interesting. It sets motive. It blurs vision and intentions. It changes target and switches mode in expression. It’s intensity often measures the tools and doings a person can act upon to reach the final result. It can also move mountains, some had say ... but ever so the positive inclination of interest can only exist and measured in determination and perseverance of a person’s in contribution of time, varieties of execution methods and lastly degree of impression.

Well at the end of the day. Each individual is different and through time and personality, one can see how much interest is bestowed upon thy subject

I know I sound like a professor giving some stupid unrelated talk. But I just felt that I need to write something deep since I have this current huge interest on the topic and also the interest to fully utilize my dining table. Eating while writing. Wonder how long this interest will persevere ...

Reputation

2012-01-11T23:53:00.009+08:00

It's been a very tiring week. Although it is only half way through, I am beginning to feel that my body is shutting down due to fatigue. I am blogging with almost no mind set to write and I cannot possibly shut my eyes. But I want to write, just to quickly update life for those who still reads about me

After arriving in JB for the past two days, I have met many clients. For once, I've come across meeting great clients who actually listen and take note of my presentation. I remember exactly two years ago, I was only doing presentation for two things - one to score more marks for my MBA ... and two to close business deals for my company. Most occasions, I do not think anyone remembers or care. Let it be clients or colleagues

These few days, my presentation was on one strategy and one motive. Information. With the help of strong brand element, it became so much easier to speak to clients and potential partners.

I realize that this boils down to reputation. Same with brand, a person is treated so with dignity, respect and a sincere relationship based on their reputation. To even put the word judgement into that is an understatement.

Whether one creates a strong positive reputation or the other really depends not only of a person's intentions and actions, but also evaluated across time. Time tell all tales. And with time too, you can see a person's true self. That helps with clarify and quickly predicting the other party quite simply and naturally. The reaction towards treating or handling a person than becomes the fundamental affect of again the starting point of reputation. Are you one that walk the talk, or just basically talk?

To make it simple, a positive reputation is coherently connected to the actions one take reflecting their basic ideas which then creates an arena of acceptance and submission from another. I am re-reading the sentence and realized that it wasn't quiet simple. Hmmm

Time for bed.

Cash and everything budget

2012-01-07T16:06:00.002+08:00

I can never keep track of my expenditures and financials. I guess it really requires commitment not only to keep track of daily debit and credits but also the will to sink your wallet deeper in the pocket when you need to take it out for payment purposes. I often wonder why people would eat less during lunch or dinner, or opting to fly low cost in long hauls, or even subject to getting counterfeits for movies or music (OK THAT LAST ONE IS DEFINITELY A LAME EXCUSE) ... but where I am getting to is the fact that money is so important these days, but how come when you use financial trackers or budget ... it always end up increasing the budget in the edit session???

I guess personal will is to be blame? Or has lifestyle demands so much of a person? Should we look to blame the economic and how the government has stir us to a middle income trap? Or are we just content with life that whatever comes - whatever goes ... including our financials? Or is it just living in the south demanded more cash?

I ask a lot of questions. Perhaps there's not much answers to them or perhaps the answers are obvious but knowing humans, we are ignorant?

Personally, I realize I am no different from my previous few months state. In fact, I think it may have just worsen a bit. I clearly recall before I made the decision to move south, I was rigorously and vigorously plotting numbers in excel to evaluate and cross evaluate both the financial occurrences if I made the decision. Putting my financial, accounting and budget skills from my MBA course, I was certain that I may have lower the risk and evaluated a decision better. Obviously I was a weak student. I am wrong

So with just like 2 weeks after payday, I am almost completely taken aback by the amount of cash crediting to my accounts. As how Alford would love to put it WTF ... LOUDLY. So how is it so? I need to track my records yah? But it doesnt seem to answer my uncertainty and question. Sigh. I am so so so broke till the extend that picking up a part time job was needed to accomodate my lifestyle down south. I say, I have myself to blame for overspending... and looking at the chart, it seems that I need to repay one particular debt before CNY and also incur an incoming expenses of "fixing buffalo"... BUFFALO IS NOT CHEAP DAMMIT!

HMM

I better return to my financials and work out a solution before I start requesting the company for an advancement. How sad...

One things quite in shock, I just finish writing an interview article for a local magazine in Johor and I swore just an hour ago I will not type or write something! But here I am on my blog, completely writing a different topic ... Hmm ... Have I found a new love for writing or am I just too bored after gluttoning down a bowl of pan mee?

Picking someone from the airport?

2012-01-03T23:37:00.003+08:00

I was at Changi Airport today. After landing in Senai, my company's transporter told me that he was going to pick up my brand manager after dropping me off. Out of the blue, I agree to following him into Singapore. I did not have any plans so it seems giving my manager a surprise guten arban will do the trick.

Since her flight got delayed for over 50min, I transformed myself into observation kin. I started studying closely of people behaving at the arrival hall. Those who are sitting down, those who hold name boards, those who are lingering, those who are on duty, those who are walking out, the tall short pretty normal looking, everyone.

Everyone was there (or mostly) for one occasion. Reuniting with someone.

I notice that reunification of two individuals require a lot of resources. Travel time for one is crucial since most airports are really far from residential areas. Not to mentioned that with aviation consequences, one may bear the extra hours of waiting and swinging their leg if flights are delayed.

But I observe overwhelming power of patience and anticipation.

The smile of the flying stewardess walking out the gate only to be greeted by her caucasian boyfriend is all it takes to make the day. They walked hand in hand to a nearby cafe and it seems that she is catering to his need now of having something pretty western. Ironic that she should be tired since she had at least a few hours clocked into work, she seem to look good. OK, maybe it is make up.

Then another air steward was reunited with his family. His wife and daughter. Wife took the coat, he held the daughter and they were kissing. This is rare I thought. I am sure mr. air steward fly often but to have his family pick him up and greet him with such warmth, I know the kid had good parents.

All the couples were doing the usual, kiss hug kiss again and then help the other pull their luggage. But seeing this girl cried because his bf brought her favourite flowers was interesting. I can't help but feel romantically involved. They were definitely spreading love

Mum was brushing his son's hair, sister was ransacking her parent's "gift" paperbag, friends were chest bumping and bear hugging, colleagues shook hands and welcome their stay, backpackers begin to open their map and discussing their destination are so common these days.

While I took a break and had dinner at the food court, I notice the air filled with people spreading joy. They were mostly enjoying their meal with someone. I notice that singaporeans are also quite the romantic type. Most tables are filled with pilot, flight attendants dining with their loved ones (couple, partners or friends) and they are not dressed in uniform. So, it got me thinking ... people who pick someone up from the airport (despite those on duties) are usually "love" related.

But my case is coincident. My manager was shocked beyond the point to see me. She couldn't believe her eye when I greeted her. She was frozen, took few seconds to digest before flashes a smile and quickly asked, did i drove the company's taxi here?

LOL ... it was awkward 10 seconds before me moved on.

That aside, back to my earlier observation...I also begin to notice the soloist. Those who quickly adjourned to taxi stands, avoid eye contacts and just smiling to others waiting for the relative was equally a lot. And so I thought, have I been travelling alone most of the time? While on business trip, I always had mr eagle along. Whenever I travel, he will come along to save cost. We plan our trips in that sense. Hardly alone. Only occasions. Rare. Even when i flew alone, I had someone at the other side waiting. My most recent memorable occasion was of course having MC waiting for me early in the wee morning of a cold day in Beijing. Such a sweet heart and all the 6 hours of painstaking sleepless flight was flushed away when he flashes his smile, hugged me and helped with my luggage

So that's how it feels like having someone to pick you up?

I wonder if my friends ever feel that way when I make my way to the airport. I knew MK is very appreciative. He would thank me for the first few minutes, probably 15min and then thank me again non-stop when we are 15min away from his home. I picked Mr Watch before and he is always fun to pick up. Always have surprises and usually happy ones. Don't think I ever did pick him up from the national airpot itself though. Who would forget K then. Picking him has been the most fun of all ...

I guess when it comes to that, it boils down to how much you want to see and do for that person. It is always thoughtful but when the gesture is sincere and filled with anticipation to see the person walk out the gate and all ... people usually dont really care if they are tired, late or even if it logically consume time. Well, I will be happy to walk out to see someone giving me hug and welcome me. I mean, who doesnt rite?

So all that said, I don't know why I am writing such post. Maybe it is a sign for me to travel again soon ... to somewhere friends are waiting :-P

Sorry for wasting your time reading this. lol

The brand new year

2012-01-01T02:00:00.001+08:00

Officially 2011 has passed. I guess many would have pondered in the last few minutes before the clock ticked 12 to celebrate the coming year, what significance have they achieved in the past months? Have they kept their resolutions? Have they fulfill promises made in year 2010 while ushering in 2011? Have they obtained or complete certain goals? Have they increase or rather nicely put, improve?

I guess nothing beats the celebration than giving yourself a pat on your shoulder for any occasion worth celebrating and remembering. I am not a big fan of festive or celebration. Every year I did it for the sake of just doing it. I guess it is because of that I never really do get invited for any form of countdown or party if any. This year, I had my parents on eve and when it was nearing 12, a phone call from a great soul wishing me the best and the rest was with Kurosaki San, famously known as Ichigo - Death God

So while dad snores away after his toast to new year with Teh Tarik and peanuts (so chinaman), I lay in my bed blogging with my iPhone thinking what have I achieved in year 2011. Am not even sure if I am proud of myself but one things for sure ... Many things happened, and time flew past ...

So some random not in order memorable moments was

1. My best girl friend and pet sis got married. They are close to heart and I dare say closest ever to me getting their knots tied first! Felt old

2. Completed and graduated from my MBA. Didn't know how it felt but I am happy I did it, met new friends and had my fair share of bitterness

3. Bought a house, and currently responsible for it. Fully and entirely random!

4. Decided to move south to a less hassle town and got into a surprise job doing something quite out of the box for me

5. Met a great date who made me believe that it is worth trying again. Although it didn't last, it was such honor to have you as a great supportive friend

6. Considered to bump into an old friend who is a true inspiration for me. Your courage, sincerity, love and strong will keeps me alive everyday. I am so happy to have met you after so many years again. Music lives!!!

7. Having a special someone requesting to sing for my first attempt of creating music. Not sure how it will turn out, but you had put me to tears so many times. You keep me swimming! You keep my soul alive!!!

8. Had so much laughter and fun in Sunway Lagoon! Cannot believe I sort of conquered my fear by accident in one of the ride. Will always remember the feeling of hanging up side down!!! And cursing !!! And then crying!!!

9. Climbing the great wall of China when I went to Beijing. Special thanks to my best buddy! You know who you are and hope to dine with you soon again, ala "our style" ... Hugs!

10. Receiving a surprised gift, wrapped in a turquoise box. Thank you so so much and I look forward in meeting you again! Owe you a big nice gift and dinner ...

Sending my appreciation to those who has made my 2011 both so good and bad! You guys complete Me!!! So the only things to do is getting use to writing the year date.

The and more

2011-12-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

The past two days has been quite interesting,
The drive under the pour,
The unexpected passerby,
The chat that resume ended up in comfort

The dinner entertains
The eavesdrop we had on the couple next table
The stare and smile
The proximity going down the escalator

The wet staircase
The laugh on a breezy night
The invitation
The changing stares

The warmth sheets
The indoor rain
The sixth sense touch
The curtains we draw

The rock and roll
The perfect checkout photo
The departure and longing
The re invitation

The wishes hopes and missing link
The chatters
The night cold breeze
The anticipation

The coffee cafe
The bubble tea store
The formal boutique
The bubble tea store again

The free parking lot
The fitting room
The water space
The room that fits two

The chocolate bar, milk and bottle tea
The request to town
The walk back
The goodbye

Then ...

The nightly wish
The mysterious pisces
The laundry leo
The approval finally

To end the night

Merry Xmas 2011

2011-12-25T12:56:00.008+08:00

A friend told me that it feels like I have three homes. One in KL, the one in JB and the other in SG. Since I was back in KL for the past 2 weekends for work and Betty's birthday, I've decided to spend my Christmas in SG. Honestly, it is not as if I have that many friends in SG and definitely I literally had not alot of plans or party to attend to here.

One of the few reason is to company my friend Markus, who at the end also went out to celebrate the festive greeting eve and the other is because my best buddy is here. It was awesome to have him for last year's new year eve and this year's XMas eve. We just sat at TCC and had drinks, watched couples kiss when the clock strike twelve and try our best not to puke eating this royal pumpkin cheese cake which is not really that royal afterall. Either than that, I spent most of my time watching TV, looking sleepy and sleeping ... lol

I want to thank all my friends who had took the opportunity to give me pressies, regardless it is wishes, videos you sent via whatsapp, chocolate, t-shirts, candies or attempt to help me reduce my wishlist (yay! one slashed!!!). It meant a lot to me because it shows that you guys cared even though I am that far away. Really! HUGS ...

MERRY XMAS ...

10 MUST have for festive

2011-12-19T11:04:00.005+08:00

Read some interesting find on R29. So wanted to share with you guys. Important 10 THINGS that guys must buy in this holiday season. Or rather how I would like to put it, shopping list for this coming sale season

1. Fitted Suit

Have that slashed out. Nine to go!

Best place to get : Tailor them - Bangkok. Off the shelves - Korea and Japan!

2. Nice Plaid Shirt

Have that too, slashed out no2. Eight to go!

Best place to get : Brand Outlet stores ... VARIETY + COST EFFECTIVE

3. Overcoat

Don't think I need that in Malaysia. But, will consider since I am planning trips to Japan/HK for winter. Maybe Boston? LOL

Best place to get : Burberry ... or Jaspal ... or Uniqlo (in descending order of affordability)

4. Leather Shoes / Boots

Have em. But never enough. So this stays in my list ... hehehe

Best place to get : Pedro

5. Tie alternative

Bow tie a ? Hmm ... this is a tricky one. Regret not getting one the last time

Best place to get : Suggestions?

6. Hoody!

Definitely got. Quite a few actually. Slashed no3, Seven to go !

7. Jeans

I have 13 of them. Some friends told me I overstock my jeans because you can actually wear them over and over again. Yea, like DUH! I do that ok ... !!! Slashed no.4

Best place to get : True Religion, Dolce&Gabbana, 7 for Mankind ... else, CK Jeans, Levis

8. Crew Neck Sweater

I love pullovers! Haha ... Bought one w Mr Watch. Considered slashed la ... 50% through the list

Best place to get : Banana Republic ... Again, Brand outlets : DAMN ALOT!

9. Scarf

Essential lo ... But I have not bought one in years.

Best Place to get : Everywhere! Just find the right material ...

10. Colored Socks

Shit! I need to get these later when I go out shopping with mum

Best Place to get : Uniqlo ... cannot remember where else I saw tons of it!!! Hmm

So today's shopping list :

Scarf

Socks

;-)

Drown

2011-12-17T23:44:00.006+08:00

An attempt I promise someone. My first draft ...

I ran under the rain,
Since you left me broken
I push through the tears
Letting it go

The bitterness of sweet memories
Haunting, crushing my skull
The loneliness after years
Left me settled in despair

I drown my heart
Pushing it deeper
Anguish cries, and I cry
I held my soul and let it fade

While it screams, begging
I shut my eyes
Stinging bitterness, and I cry
I held it softly and it stops

It stops, now cold as December
as still as silence and regrets

I broke myself when you fell apart
Since you walked out that door
I lied to myself
Still do, Do you?

Lost and often in fear
I am forced to rip it apart
Seeing you again
Stab the second time, again over and again

Now I cry and drown my heart
Pushing it deeper
Anguish cries, and I cry
I held my soul and let it fade

While it screams, begging
I shut my eyes
Stinging bitterness, and I cry
I held it softly and it stops

It stops, now cold as December
as still as silence and regrets

I can't never will let you leave
I long the embrace from behind, the smile and laughs
We were an item, never thought it will end
There forever in vow, never gone
But you did, without turning back

Shooting yourself at the feet

2011-12-16T22:07:00.004+08:00

I find human amusing and very interesting. Not bragging or trying to defend a point but has generally Malaysians become so skeptical, negative and prone to complains? I mean if Singaporeans are at the level, I understand because they have reached a developed country stage... But Malaysians ... please, stop complaining and start doing something about your life. This goes with align with the next political election process. Don't complain life is hard if you are going to shoot yourself in the feet.

START LIVING LIFE

I don't know, maybe because ever since young ... I am exposed to many facts in life. Growing up in a family where cash wasn't always enough was sucky. Having friends being mean to you and having no proper vocabulary to spit back sucks. Seeing families going for vacation elsewhere while you are stuck home wondering why is life so dull is even suckier. And when the envies, loneliness sinks in, the complain in life begins.

I know friends who find their limitations, restrictions and lifestyle being controlled hard to live. Growing up in an urban state of mind is definitely not a walk in the park. Having corruption springing out, splatting shit on your face made life even harder. Fortunately I was lucky. Always brag about people who came into my life, inspirationally driving me for the better. Having my family to support and ever so encouraging, having my two best buddies to remind me on how life should always be on the move, having a sifu who inspires me to be mindful and balance in life, having an angel to remind me of contentment and peace and having someone far to always believe and be strong helped in every sense.

On the contrary, I find people who make their life different, bringing themselves to be more competitive and driven by positivity and yet down to earth really amuses me. I salute them ...

That drives me. To stay sane and always compare myself to the better, and then try to be better but yet subtly proud of my own achievements. It is so important for people to now look at how things have change and will change dramatically. Within short periods of time, huge companies had died. Institution such as families and education has changed. Values and social orders had been restructured. Often not, we find ourselves also entangled in the capitalist world... but that has become a fact

An economic guru which I have crossed path with told me and a bunch of friends that if Malaysian continues to stay unmoved, trapped in the middle income (RM3000 below), there will be domino effect where one will never bring themselves out of poverty. YES! because while other countries like China are skipping their way to luxury stores, here we are digging in to outlet stores.

I am not bashing what seem to be a mere ramble. But have you look yourself in the mirror and wonder why are we always complaining about life but when it comes to action, we are just sitting down often lying to ourselves that it is ok? I guess at the end of the day, the winner will still be the people (even if they are unethical) who uses themselves to the best advantage to fit into the demand of life

I find people incompetent in understanding the need to improvise and march forward. On many occasions, people receive what they are fed and never seen the bigger picture. Are we that blind and just replicate what is thrown at us? Or are we just voicing our concern because viral marketing has encouraged us to be voice but actually noise? Obviously facebook empowerment is nothing but just status.

This post has no intention to berate anyone. Just I find that while I have coffee with my friends, it is so weird that people are all just complaining about things without rethinking where they are. If you are not happy with life, don't live with it. Make that damn change. If you are not content with life, then you are obviously not happy. If you are content, then you will feel no effect reading this post.

Stop whining and crying ...

Most played song - DEC 2011

2011-12-12T17:17:00.005+08:00

Most played song on my playlist at the moment.

Katy Perry - The one that got away

Fav line from the song : in another life, i would make you stay

Daydream everytime : the video ends with that heartbreaking lullaby ...

What I like most about the song : the arrangement, the drums and dramatic tone

Total play count today : 12

Current billboard position : 9

Fav line from the song : if you ever leave me, leave some morphine at the door

Daydream everytime : when the haunting melodic instrument starts when the chorus ends

What I like most about the song : I can relate to the song whenever I see that someone

Total play count today : 8

Current billboard position : 3

Day 4 work - PR media launch

2011-12-06T17:43:00.001+08:00

So today we had our officially media launch and to be honest, it went quite well. I just hope the same excitement that the attendee gets in the event transcend to the actual press itself.

We of course unveil the technic coaster which is one of the main attractions at the park. This is just the first stage and to be frank, really is our first media approach. There will be more coming soon so beware of the press and media talking bout us

The highlight of the day of course was not only concentrated at the coaster, and the CEO behind the project but also on the Lego brand itself. The people who represented the brick, the mascot and the magical toy bricks lead equally a show stealer!!!

The event was a success and after my manager left the office, here I am doing my small effort to tell you guys that the park is worth visiting! Really it doesn't at least to take pic with the hundreds of different type of Lego brick man rite???

Johor update - Day 5

2011-12-01T18:02:00.006+08:00

Ok so i promised a detail post. I am so sorry for the delayed reply and from the look of my schedule for work in the next few weeks, I doubt the time I have to actually post and write something here. Honestly speaking, I do not plan to install any wifi or internet back home too. Refering to JB home of course.

To dedicate this post to the people had made my move possibly the most fun and stress free ever!

MUM, DAD & LIL MERMAID

So let me quickly update my last 4 days in JB. For the first time in my life, I felt proud to be my mum and dad's son. This is because I literally had them helping me to clean the whole entire place before really staying in. I appreciate every single bit of detail they had put into furnishing and equipping the house for my basic survival from electronics, stocking up the fridge to even ensuring hygiene standards are on par with living comfortably. Even my lil sister did a fantastic job helping around. Seriously, without them - I would not have gotten the best of my move. They're like angels from the sky I tell you!

MR JOE WONG

For bringing my parents around for food, introducing me to the eateries and most importantly helping me to network with very important people in JB, like the electronic shop owners ... modern contemporary furniture manufacturer and of course teaching me two important words that I will forever carry in my life "感恩" which means appreciation. I honestly can't wait to meet him for drinks again once he is back from his business trip to catch up and discover life in JB!

MR YEO & Agent J

For ensuring the house was cleaned before we moved in. Left every bit of the house intact and live-able instantly (move in condition) after so many years. I indirectly owe the agent a huge favor too for introducing such a great and wonderful seller (currently landlord).

MR WATCH, MK & James

MWatch for every single bit of mentoring and reminder that he has showered me through out. Looking forward to showing you around this weekend. MK and James for calling me on alternate days. You guys are the best and I know very well that our friendship will last. I miss you guys lots and thank you so much for keeping me company through phone :-) ... Also would like to thank all my other friends who had keep in touch, it really meant a lot to me that you guys remember my first day at work, my move and concern about my whereabouts. I still feel like a small boy with you guys

Sappy thank you aside, my first day at Legoland was thrillingly fun. There are huge expectations and pressure but everyone here practices working with a smile. Something ironically hardly happened in such fast-paced, high demanding organization. Apparently, Merlin (who own darn a lot of theme parks and still acquiring others) is one of the best place to work. Lucky me I must say. So with my early reporting to work, briefing and introductory to the team, I fit in nicely at a corner with my immediate manager overseeing my computer screen. Apparently I am the first boy in the marketing and sales team and some how, I felt great because I kinda click off with the current senior and founding team. Better not count my eggs before it hatches

So what i did either than playing lego and just asking for work (cos my PC isn't quite functioning right yet) ... is attending meeting and after that had my entire month caught up in work! For now, I had to help oversee as much marketing and sales activities as possible. Time for pics!

Me on first day of job ... with my lego name tag! haha

close up of my cute name tag! love it

got my blackberry too ... company phone

spent my morning playing with lego, instruction from my manager

day5 - reporting to work ...

my block apartment ... where i am living now

apartment pic - kitchen

living room

bedroom ...

attempt to cook after so long ...

salute the guy who installed my aircond, if he slips ... thats death

day 2 - cam whoring after i seen the doctor

super delicious vinegar pork noodle

local delicacies, not for the faint hearted or non-pork lover ....

Thats about it. For now, I am going to have dinner at home. Bread w peanut butter and milk. Cos I bought them and they may not last that long thanks to expiry date.

Caoz ...

PS - Do I look cute in my name tag? LOL

JB update

2011-11-28T16:03:00.001+08:00

I shall promise a detail update w proper pictures later. Since my arrival yesterday I have been so busy, running up and around to get furniture and electronics. To be honest, I am getting some basics for now and it has cost nearly 8K... Oh my

I have my family to thank for it. Mum and dad has been so supportive in moral, financial and actually enjoy the process of moving me out from my home in Subang to Johor! It sorta helped me feel fit in...

There are also a few great souls I would like to extend my thanks too, including baby sister ariel, uncle boon hwa, uncle and aunt boon keong, brother joe wong, and mr yeo!

Will update more later. For now, tweet reads

"Home shower heater installed, fridge, washing machine, oven, rice cooker running, air-cond installing... Vono bed on their way :-)"

Sweetness in Photography

2011-11-25T22:32:00.001+08:00

That's the title dedicated to my friends who had spent Friday dinner w me today!

Testing the new blogger application and wow ness this is so fun! Now I can blog wherever whenever... Even in jam. I love iPhone and love apple for making this possible, also google la for launching this app.

So here I am sitting in Mont Kiara, Pizza Brava w my bunch of love muffins. A bunch of girl friends that were connected to my life randomly and unexpectedly turned companion for eternity. That's how we view of friendship, although so different each of us are in terms of lifestyle and expectations, we can always sit at the same table and love each other unexpectedly and unconditionally

I really am so sappy with this farewell or moving south. Love you all girls really ... Please don't forget me ya! Muax

Road less taken

2011-11-25T01:03:00.005+08:00

The same idea happened in different intervals in life brings different meaning. Just like when you string the guitars at different time of life, the music and tone that you creates reflect different moods and growth.

There were rejection, there were abduction. There were ups, high, lows, and hidden tears. There were anger, disappointment, resentment and then there were joys, laughs, smiles and contentment. Scaring and then bandaging. Support, advise and brushing off the best and worst. Imagination, intuition, experiences and sharing. Exploration, learning, education and teaching. Then there were quiet moments, awkward moments, intriguing moments, painful moments.

When you had it all, and still took the road less taken. You build a wonderful non-committable yet securing relationship, whether it is in the form of soul mates or friends ... it is unconditional love you bestowed on to the other.

As the days come nearer for me to advance south, there were plunges so deep, so depth and so wide some will not understand. By distancing myself, I was able to focus better. Prioritize better. Worry less. Stress less. The usual ignorance had me craving for food to feed to hungry and tired soul. I needed some company, someone strong and someone that can magically appear without me asking, someone who had no reservations, someone who will take in the pain and still shower me with great attention (what!? i am leo ok ... and i need it!) ... someone who can just accomodate to my shit and still not judge, affect my decision or so. SO COMPLEX RITE?

A common name rang. I was reluctant to pick up, but I choose the road less taken. Pick up. It was a call I never regret. The same call I gotten at the time of need when I was in Singapore last year while I was bed ridden ill in April 2010 (or was it May 2010?) that he miraculously lifted me up when I thought I was dying. I had that same call today. Right time, right place

I am proud to have this friend of mine, who had appeared by accident and by being "muka tebal". A friend that logically wouldn't be friends due to many incidental requirements. A friend by faith, had turned into something sour and sweet. He was around when I had to crunch theories for economic classes, he helped added points and marks for my accounting review on financial report, he taught me to be realistic, optimistic and always pushing me for better growth. He made life look so simple, so daring and yet so complicated in certain sense. Company me to travel and learn, and to many importance ...

I had my blood donation habit thanks to him and was a better buddhist thanks to his books. Impressed me with his determination and persistency. Awed me with his love commitment and how swiftly he ended it to exit pain and hurt. Turn me on with his smart ethical strategy in business dealings. Bored me with his routine. Made me rolled eyes with his traditional (or he would say old-fashioned thoughts). We are different, so different but never really apart. We never judge or expect

One things for sure, I am still me and he never doubted to be a great mentor, friend, brother-uncle-dad (he probably gonna kill me but ya, just a joke) and a shoulder-cum-ear-cum-mouth supporting me through without qualms, expectations in any return or so. Mr Watch, I will remember the days you helped me through so much, stand by me and still deal with my immature childish tantrums.

Specially dedicate this post to you, since you become such a good boy for treating me to pork bacon and lamb slice steamboat :-) even though you don't eat after 8pm! Must taken a lot of courage to down the food at 10pm ... Road less taken huh?

Tin Tin the movie

2011-11-21T00:48:00.005+08:00

This is quite a belated post but in my mind, after two days of watching the movie with my bunch of buddies ... the animation depth and quality, story line, character build up and action-comedy-packed 2 hours of cinematic experience were none other than extremely exhilirating!!!

You know you will not be let down if the entire production team (especially the producers!) who encompases Steven Spielberg's extraordinary talent for making banging bucks movies. It is none other than :

It was by chance, or rather accidental that we decided to watch this movie. Our main choice was the heavily publisized Puss in Boots but the timing was quite off. So, the entire gang settled in for a belgian based comic character turned into animated movie.

Seriously, this is a must watch movie. Although not as "touchy" or "raw wildly-connected" as Avatar, I actually think the details of the animation is highly acclaimable. Standing ovation to the details put into the entire creation of surreality. Every rain drop, flowing hair, textile details on the clothes, sunlight effect is carefully created. To top it all, the investigative and thrill starts 5minutes into the movie and never really ended until the credit roll.

But one thing I notice different in this movie is that the anticipation, expectation as well as audience gauge meter boundaries is pushed. You find yourself, especially your eye ... following a particular plot or story only to quickly disctracted by another one intruding but related to the previous plot. I know ... one word ... Question mark! Just to make it simple, it seem that there is two situations happening on the same time that demands the same attention on one screen ... In some sense, two story working its' way. Very interesting indeed

I guess I will leave you to watch it yourself. Honestly, I really like the movie. And the dog. snowy too ... but I don't think I will be trying to copy TinTin's hairstyle which looks a bit like the hairstyle that grown-up baby jack jack from Pixar's Mr Incredible will have.

Impressive animation. Go watch!

Bruno Mars - It will rain

2011-11-18T14:33:00.001+08:00

Most played song at the moment ... in my itunes of course;

Love the song

Small world afterall

2011-11-17T11:38:00.004+08:00

It is a small small world

Have you wonder how small the world is sometimes? I recently discover that one of my friend is actually attached to another friend of mine for 9 years! Goodness lord, and what a friend I am for not noticing. That said, it is not entirely my fault because they are so discreet about their relationship.

Lately, KT has been close to me, sharing many thoughts and sacrifices he made. Being all ears, I was also very fearful because I do clearly remember that the last time I was in touched with a mutual friend, he ended his 10+ years relationship. I don't think I jinx them but sometimes it feels like I am a devil's advocate, not that I encourage any seperation but usually it ends up like that. So indirectly, I feel bad.

Beside, thats not the point. What I am trying to say is that ... it is a small world and how the world connect to each other sometime is scary. Looking back,

1. It is like how I met betbetna, my dad's same village friend's daughter in my first job and now we are like best friends.

2. One of my Bentong friends is actually the boyfriend to my ex-international finance manager

3. My friend has actually been working for 10 years in my family dentist clinic, without me knowing. One of his colleague, another dentist who treated me during my last visit is the fiancee of my MBA colleague!!!

4. My very good buddy Dave from Singapore is actually Mr Watch's long time friend.

5. Met with a great inspirational soulful friend accidentally again after so many years

6. Currently am chatting with a friend from Thai who happened to be best friend with one of my best friend's date! haha

Talk about coincidence! I am just thankful that I am not directly connected to anyone that may pose any conflict or so. Phew *wipe sweat* but better to be more aware since I have so much friends. Ok, I think I am boasting about my circle of friends already. Haha. Time to get back to work and hopefully I will have better luck networking in JB!

Least expected

2011-11-15T00:48:00.004+08:00

So the past few weeks have been quite interesting. I mean, since when my life hasn't been interesting right? Except for the occasional spending time alone in the room or just lazing in the bed for hours after I awake ... I must say that the last 2 weeks particularly had been quite a ride. This post had all the least expected things happening ...

I am not sure I want to tell the details of every bit but I still want to break it out to few of my loyal readers. Especially those overseas.

IN THE LOVE DEPARTMENT

To be honest, I have been trying to go out on dates and putting myself out in the market. It is not like I am desperate to find a partner but it seems like if I do not try, I will never find? That kinda thinge. So, I let my walls down (pants too occasionally :P) and I am stuck somewhere between not my type, attached or not interested. Knocking on all the wrong doors, I was even more determined. Leo trait they say. As I plunge deeper and deeper into the "marketing campaign" titled date me please. I suddenly just gave up. No more I say. The mind was conditioning the fact that with my quality and looks, I will never find anyone. I am not dating or boyfriend material. So I literally gave up dating or meeting people in the love department after months of trying to move on and going out spontaneously.

While I sack the entire attachment to this department, out of no where three great, awesome, fantastic loveable people had confess their intention of an early potential relationship. Both the honor and thrill, I am sorry but I shun love at the moment. So, the approaches came at the wrong time. Least expected. Dont ask me why...

IN THE CAREER DEPARTMENT

I got offered a job where the company has a huge portfolio and progression growth. Although I was very sure at the start it was just going to be an interview practice ... it has gone a long way, vertically and horizontally ending at my footstep an offer letter

I never got offered by an MNC. I never doubted my ability and education background but my work experience and apparently job specialization has never attracted any interviews from MNCs. Imagine that I literally had 98% rejection from all the positions I have applied. It is either I am writing my resume the wrong way, or I have misspelled my public marketing to pubic marketing.

It was the same resume, and I did my best in the interviews. When they called to tell me that the position went to someone more experience, a part of me was not surprised and I was literally expecting it due to precedent. Then when the director told me that they still want me on board as an assistant manager instead with the same benefit and package ... it was definitely a least expected offered.

IN THE LIFESTYLE DEPARTMENT

With the yes going to the MNC, I then find myself a crossroad. So I have agreed onto a job that requires me to relocate into a ground of lifestyle more different than KL. Before I signed the offer letter, which I politely held for more than a month ... I literally did all the research, online onground on-the-move whatever you call them on the lifestyle and city itself. I am definitely going to downgrade my lifestyle and live more modestly ... because the city itself, the locals called it town.

Yeap, I am officially announcing this on my blog ... I am relocating, moving away from the city. Least expected coming from a boy who love the city life. That said, I want to thank all my friends who had been supportive, coming out on the tight time line of my leftover time in the city. You guys and girls had been by food and soul for my toughest dark times and i hope you will do too

IN THE FRIEDSHIP DEPARTMENT

My city friends are actually making time to visit me in that boring town! Some of them actually marked my calender and acknowledge permission to visit. Now that's a shock! Least expected. I am expecting two friends next month already and one pending whether she will drop by or not???? Hmm I may just take back what I said about the testing friendship ... But shocking thou!! To me at least ...

That aside, I think I made more friends this month than ever. I didnt know why, but staying low profile and quiet has it perks. After my HCM trip, a lot of friends had been buzzing me. Asked for drinks, for business advises, for love consultation, for a shoulder to cry on, for plain fun and even for cooking advise! So that's good I guess, but when I got a friend who resurrected from death ... thats freaking least expected (or maybe I was just dramatic)

OTHER DEPARTMENT

I don't know where this is suppose to go but I also bought a house ... erm ... within 15minutes of viewing the place. VERY least expected. Pa Ma (papa mama) bank was with me, so I had their consent and approval before putting my leg into the mouse trap called commitment. With my recent green light from the lawyer and bank loan, I certainly hope there is not problem to own this place. I actually kinda like the adrenaline ... lol

Now just have to shop for furniture and electronics. But when dad has a close friend who covers dealership for electronics and mum for furniture ... I didn't know mum and dad is so cool, so I am getting stuffs for a good (hopefully great) discounts too ... HAHA ... least expected ...

I wonder whats next ... marriage? Now that would be ... LOL ... nevermind

Broken Wings

2011-11-12T12:54:00.005+08:00

The piano plays,

Voiceless

The clock ticks, alarmed

Tearless

Sheltering from misery,

Blow by blow

Company by stars, darkness too

Awake with aches

Still breathing,

But beautifully suffocating

Reminisce in shadows, missing

Lingering

Abandonment, shattered

Weakness

I stand by the river side, comforting breeze

Cold and crucifying

Deafening nights

Running

Lost in the rain, storm noises

Countless avoidance

Hurdles, test and questions

Doubts

Constant ramp, punch right at the gut

Impairing respiration

Exhausted

Drained

And yet I still stand

Because I am only human

HoChiMinh Vietnam 2011

2011-11-10T01:05:00.020+08:00

I am sure I've started with this line before. Amazing how time flies! Just about the same time a week ago, I was packing at this hour ... ready to meet my quota for traveling and also achieve my resolution of visiting different country in my travel plan. The destination marked was HoChiMinh, Vietnam ... with my two best buddies. So, let the pictures do the talking then ...

Starting the journey. Not our first pic, but first together in the plane

Picked up by our driver. Cannot believe my buddies wore red (mickey brand somemore!) and didnt inform me ... psstt!

One of the sights I remember seeing, is that lots of chinese temple visible on the street

Arriving at our first two night accommodation ... I called it the Beverly Loft of HoChiMinh, Fideco compound @ district 2

Then we went for lunch at this very nice restaurant. Viet food all the way

James looking at macaroons. Also attempted to order, first language barrier ... communication breakdown

And then come the food. Salads

Attempting macro shot from my camera ... not bad for indoor shot eh?

Then came more food. rolls, greens, all healthy stuff

After lunch, we went cam whoring around the city center

Love the Opera house which showcase two woman lifting the ever grand balcony with the tits showering artistry flare. Sisters I think.

Love this picture, the shadow and all ... doesn't feel like we are in HCM

The cathedral ... yeap, we are still in Saigon

The post office, where MK attempt a motion jump shot

Attempt of artistry montage. I think fail because the photographer is different at each shot

The reunification palace, did not enter since we were told it was very boring

So we ended up cam whoring at a nearby local coffee joint - Highland Coffee till dinner time

Dinner we had more roll, MK trying to use the rice paper as a mask instead of roll

I prefer to roll, pose and down the rice paper. Had more shots of food, but figure it will bore you guys. So we skip all of those ya

Second day was outdoor trip day. We skipped Mekong delta since it was raining and opt for a day tour around tourist spots

Our first stop was to visit a handicapped center where victims of war were handicrafting souvenirs.

Look at this lady slowly piecing egg shells onto a huge plate that resemble a Picasso painting!

Our main stop for the day was actually the headquarter of Vietnamese during the war ... ChuChi Tunnel (pronounced as Gucci Tunnel!) ... rest assured, dont have any luxury boutique underground. MK and James hearing the briefing and propaganda video - COMMUNISM!

MK at a bomb site, huge crater ... resemble a pond

Underground hiding spot for the Viet when they were attacked. Notice how small is the hole!!!

MK really going deep down inside.

Even james can fit!!!

One of the tunnel into the underground headquarters. It looks like some python snake nest. But apparently the tunnel goes down to a few level (4 levels) and at the third and fourth level, even a huge bomb landing on the surface will not hurt them. Scary

One of the booby traps, spikes underneath ... the land practically opens up and drop soldiers to their death. There are many types of these designed to crippled the Americans. Apparently worked very well. You need to be there to see it, SCARY TWO!

One of the tanks, original spot where it was disarmed by a landmine.

Then I spent about RM50 firing a real AK47 ... It was damn nice, but if I were a soldier there. I would be deaf, then shot dead because my aim was bad. But how come my scores in Playstation was good????

MK with our gun instructor. James busy playing with his Iphone at the background, macam la ada signal

Then we explored the underground tunnel. Took many pictures, but it was all the same ... small, enclosed and pretty much solid. It was so difficult to move in the enclosed area, but our guide literally sprint in this tunnel. I salute him

Now you know why he sprint so quickly, short legs. But you gotta give it to him man! He can move so swiftly in the tunnels.

Our tour guide Anna who did an awesome job! If you ever tour HCM, please contact her ... she gives good rates for tour and all. Buzz me if you need her service

We had a light lunch-aka-war time style. Just pandan jasmine tea with tapioca potato dipped in crushed peanut and salt. Local delicacy that is superbly delicious. or maybe we were just hungry

Then we had a group portrait with the guerrilla team who happened to think we were the most likeable tourist ever

On our way out, we saw bomb shells displayed like pots. It is crazy how huge they look back in those days! Scary 3

Cam whoring to say bye bye to the tunnels

Paddy fields, nice sight

Back in the city, we went for the famous lunch ... first Pho (pronounced as FUR) in HCM

Very delicious!

Then it was to the war museum for a real feel and touch on the war vehicles and all

I love how my Brietling cap fits into the whole ambience and feel.

Those who played command and conquer will enjoy this place. Most of the artifacts here were on the game play! LOOK TURRET?! haha

Bomb displays. There are also very graphical photos in the museum which I did not took picture of. Even if I did, I wouldn't show it here. You gotta experience yourself. It was very depressing and sad. Just be prepared to see human slaughtered, butchered, remaining of body parts, tears, post war individuals and chemical war victims ... deformed bodies, babies and lots of death. Yeap. Depressing

Then it was to the market for some good ol shopping. Ben Thanh market ... which is nothing compared to Bangkok

Road cam whoring. Must take pic on the street because their street sight is amazing!

Why? Because it is filled with bikes most of the time. Try counting the helmets

Night arrived, we had coffee again near Diamond Plaza. Em, I think the place is called Trung Nguyen ... do try their drip coffee!

Our last day, we checked into a hotel ... time for real sit back and relax

For lunch, we actually went and try their local fast food which wasn't that local (because it is originally from Korea) but we don;t have it in malaysia ... so its all good. Lotteria! Haha

Back to cam whoring. IN THE ELEVATOR even

In the early evening, the skies were dark ... a brewing storm is near. Heavy pour came

So the boys sit back and had tea ... like alice in wonderland

While I put on my rain coat and explored the city with my local viet friend, Hao on his BIKE!

The adorable Hao. Thank you for the tour around city under rain and on the bike. AWESOME EXPERIENCE!

Then we all went for dinner with Ray (msian friend) and another viet friend ... Hoang who had one of the most consistent sunshine smile ever recorded

Ray with the amount of food ordered

James and Mk

Wish I had his smile ... After dinner we went clubbing. No pics taken because the club didn't allow it but it was another experience. You can get a long island tea about RM10 and in the club, they serve fruits ... yeap, they gave us a fruit platter!

Last day, we left the city early in the morning

And after only a few hours of sleep ... we departed from the city ... still looking good... :P

I had such an awesome time. I really love south east asia. They never failed to impress me with the graphics and monuments. I am a sucker for cultural or historical stuff. Vietnam is truly a must see place. You really get the best of both worlds in this developing country. Wouldn't advise you to go if you think you can get by with just english ... get a tour guide

Yawn. Oh my ... time to go bed

Graduate finally!

2011-11-02T00:15:00.009+08:00

It has been raining and raining and raining. The pour is so scary and sudden sometimes. I always wonder that this is the best season to don a burberry trenchcoat and boots out. It would be so glam! But well, it is still not practical. So instead of that, I took out my water proof jacket and met the boys to plan for our upcoming trip.

It is amazing how time flies. I still remember the times all three of us sat at cafe talking about where to go, what to do and how we are going to be like the best of friends forever. Honestly, our friendship had grew so much but soon, it may be put to test. This trip would mark our first step.

That said, I am also quite happy on a few occasion. One is that I finally graduate from my MBA course. YAHOO! With my final result out yesterday while I was planning my first investment, or commitment to per say ... I had to treat myself. I mean, come on ... I was quite a far and was not exactly with any vicinity of a friend to celebrate with, so I bought myself ice-cream ... and vain-fully took a picture of myself to show you guys ...

Of course while meeting the boys earlier tonight, I blackmailed them (in a fun way) to get me cakes and drinks before announcing the good news to them. Lol ... no wonder lil pixie call me the drama one. Just a post-grad course finale but I have to blow it out of portion. What to do? Happy ma!

I cannot help but feel a sense of achievement. I mean, after CRASH COURSE and literally almost crashing myself in between MBA and life for the two years, to-top it all considering to take a bold step for my career and not to mention the fact that I had inspired some very important people in the past months had made me feel that I am beginning to get my life back together, seriously like BACK TOGETHER. About time right?

The recent consideration and support in my next first step of actually owning an asset way before my intended time frame, will also mark another milestone in my ever so complex life. I seriously hope and wish that I am (or will be?) making the right decision. For once, my dad and I actually had proper conversations and sharing of thoughts, ideas and suggestions. Even mum was surprisingly smiling at both of us. I think the last time daddy and son both seriously talked was back in school when I was deciding to do science or arts in year 2000. Definitely a decade figure has passed.

Looking forward now, I will be so packed up till 10th. Don't even want to know what is up after the 10th ... So much to do, so little time. Raise your glass eh!

Not the last post thanks to work

2011-10-29T11:14:00.003+08:00

So it is not my last post, and that is such a disappointment. It will be for my boss who currently have to deal with the liquidation process in Spore. Being a non-sporean, I can only help this much and while I sit you blogging. There is this other staff who is sleeping. Yeap, we are running a dead-ghostly garage sale. Although there were promotion and advertisement done, to be honest - we are not going anywhere. Just sitting, waiting and wasting time

Now, I have to open up my brain and try to squeeze some suggestion into point format, hoping that he will be able to handle the large amount of sitting stocks, equipments and furnitures in the near future. Seriously, that's the best I can do.

I really have nothing to write but just wanted to do something. You know, to kill the boredom. I wonder what is happening back in KL. I think this thought and question will rise more often then ever.

Picture Trail Oct

2011-10-28T01:09:00.004+08:00

I think this may be my last post for the month of October. Realize my blog pale in comparison with some other writers ... maybe I should migrate it to Thumblr ? Is that how you spell that new "in" place to blog?

Anyway, just to cheer thing up a lil in my plain ol sphere of thoughts. Here are some random pictures ...

Not bad eh? Maybe I should do more often of this picture trail thinge.

Last post for Oct?

2011-10-27T00:51:00.005+08:00

I think the month is coming to an end. Oh, it is the end. October has been definitely a pass through month. Honestly, I don't even remember what I did in the past month. Only regret skipping that much of gym, losing unnecessary weight looking thinner and probably the only thing worth remembering is Trixie and Ryan's wedding.

And so I was looking back the past few weeks and wonder, how life had intertwined with decision making and coping with the possibility of losing a close friend. The ironic part is that sometimes I felt I lost myself within time and space. It is as if a kind of drug is taking over. Worrisome, no doubt but manageable.

So the usual rambles aside, I just am happy that the next two weeks will be dedicated to my close friends, buddies who are really just next door all the time. My turn to show appreciation to the great souls that has been around. Right now, I am just gonna go with the flow. No frills, no expectations.

Time will tell

So back to playing with Bonge. Hehe ... yeap, got a new gadget to play with ... Not gonna slash my wish list since it's NOT a substitute. Just need a better organizer for my up-coming tight schedule life!

Bonge ... and Binge, lighted up so happy he got a new friend to sleep with at night

Dark Side

2011-10-24T13:54:00.001+08:00

Dark Side made me cry. This song came a little too late ... but it is good ... it is really good. Someone will get this piece of art as a gift from me. A parting gift ...

So I've made the third decision already. Now I am going to just make the best out of it. Weird that after this ordeal, the strength in me shattered ... into pieced, into dust. I guess that's the balance in life. When you stand tall to make decisions, you gotta leave with the other side - effect and affect.

Well, I am going to sink my head into the pillow and just slip away.

This ones for you my dear superheroes

2011-10-23T13:18:00.003+08:00

The past few days has been hazzy. Life is about making decisions, living to it and making the best out of it. I don't know how I instill such positive behavior and sometimes shocked at myself but well, I have the people around me to thank.

I am about to make the third most important decision in my life. I clearly remember the first two.

One - to continue my study in Australia when my relationship then was still quite fresh and vulnerable to risk. Never regret it cos I've grown so much from it and the experience that comes after that made me a better person

Two - to risk separation and see how far we would go. Kinda regret it because it haunts me everyday to see that it wasn't that solid after all to begin with, but making the most of it for now.

Three - a decision to be made tomorrow. I do not want to reveal about it but lets keep tabs shall we?

A lot people have been supportive in the cross road of my life. I guess it is a blessing in disguise to have inspirational and strong people around you. There are those who logically reminds you of the right thing to do in long term for short term sacrifices, there are those who unconditionally support and love you quietly even thought it aches them to see you go the other way, there are those who becomes inspirational enlightenment in darker days braving strong each day without fear and weakness, there are those subtly sing each words filling your soul for courage and revelation, there are those who live to just be by your side even though they have alternative life-hood, there are those who quietly wishes you the best, thinking about you everyday even when they are not around, then there are those who walk the talk and live their life setting examples for you, there are those who loudly proclaim their support in your shadows and there are those who you have never met but had them constantly responding to your qualms in viral networks.

To those who had made it possible ... you would not believe how much you have meant in every single way. Life is tough, but you guys (and girls) are tougher in every way. It is because of people like you that strong leaders, soulful singers, great companions, beautiful lovers, sincere friends and undeniably courageous individuals are frame to swim through this sea of thorns. So let's all stay that way ya? Sounds like preaching, but together - I guess we are like the forces of superheroes ... saving each day at a time. I should strike a pose now eh?

That said, I wonder when is Wonderwoman the movie is releasing. I really hope the movie showcases a hot, well built woman in super tight hotpants (or is it panty?) to play the role. Please let it be someone with Beyonce's hip, Catherine Z Jones's look and Charlize Theron's acting. Miss seeing chick butt kickboxing action movies.

To the angel from Austin, and friend from next door

2011-10-22T10:13:00.006+08:00

Am already playing the tracks from the new album. It feels as if the album talks to me. The lyrics and song selection are actually very good and quite addictive. You definitely can belt it out anytime of the day and feel good after that. A mode of releasing it all out is to scream, yell and blast it all out - really - it does feel good after that. Not to mention, the album is an inspiration one.

Anyway, I am just awed over the fact that my blog was actually inspiration to quite a few people, people that I look up to. So that's a huge honor! Almost teary saying it. Gosh.... I never thought that my thoughts, mostly ramblings could be so influential. For that I am thankful and will continue to write although sometimes I am really just blank with pages. Hopefully I will never bore or kinda scare you guys away. Really appreciate your support and reading, means a lot to my funny-named blog. Ta for now and thank you so much KBC and ECH for the belated birthday gift. It will be a tune I will always remember no matter "where" I am

Hugs Kisses

ps - For a tired soul to replenish with care and love from a friend who care for you.

Beyonce - Love on Top

2011-10-18T22:21:00.001+08:00

Oooo .... I love the video ... Sayang Beyonce balik

New trial

2011-10-15T00:37:00.003+08:00

It has been a very interesting 3 days. Interesting how when you least expect something to happen, it happens. After all, life is filled with surprises and you never know what is coming next.

Just a few days back, I met someone - a total stranger but shared so much similarities in life. There were definitely chemistry in both our communication and greetings. I would like to think that our friendship has something interesting but there is always the fear. Fear of things getting out of hand. Fear of any possibilities that could only result in void and waste. The same fear I fear that of when you look into someone's eye knowing that you can give everything you have only to have it returned empty. Worst, knowing that it can never go anywhere.

So after relating stories about his life and background, family and kids ... I begin to wonder how life would be if I would to pull the plug and switch sides. A question and taboo only to be scrutinize by friends and loved ones even before any disclaimers are made. Seeing my best friend getting married and also soon my sister, I am starting to feel that perhaps I would like to challenge and submit to the bigger picture. Will I be in denial or will it be a brand new chapter? I will never know

Those who claimed that they know me aren't really showing that they do. Those who doesn't sometimes seems more to be on the right track. As he continues talking about sticking to choices, responsible over decisions made and subjecting oneself to new commitments seems a little far fetched for the weakly disciplinary life of homosexuals. Everything changes when you are not bounded by law (or lamely put - contract) and to be absence in societal expectations sometimes allow you room to even fall out and foul play. Clear and good examples of life in the rainbow world. After all, nobody guarantee any form of bonds in either world. And to make matter worst, it seems more superficial in certain side.

Thus I question, is it worth burying a past trial for a deemed future? Either way, both futures are untold if undiscovered. To be fair, I need to start to explore and compare. Aren't self deceit and affirmation already existing in both opposite sides of life? Then, there is a 50-50 chance! I sometimes and still wonder ... how it all ends or can turn up. Will I detest and trial life to avoid the regret stare some have given me? Will I be able to see friends in any similar way and will they too do the same? Will it merely by cherishing love in the next generation for the sake of continuum in bloodline rather than familial institution.

Refreshing the times we both stood at the stairways and looking into the skies, almost lip locking only to have the door on lower ground startled us was a sign. Possibilities.

Just too much on the plate right now. But I think I am going to try to be fair to myself. Cannot be hoping any longer ...

Someone like me

2011-10-11T01:55:00.007+08:00

I read about Ryan's blog just a few minutes ago and since I am companying my mum in the living room, she is wide awake waiting for her meds to kick in - vomiting due to gastric, I decided to spent the next few minutes to copy Ryan's post on disclosing stuff about myself. Not sure if I can do this as well as him, but no harm trying

I grew up fantasizing about mutants, specifically the X-men. Always believed that mutants exist and secretly hope one day I can jolt someone with my electric ball. Till today, I will swipe my hand to "open" the sensory sliding glass doors at shopping mall and secretly counting the traffic light and lift my hands towards it whenever it is gonna turn green just to pretend that I have powers. I am a guy who lives in his fantasy realm.

That said, I never understood why people see me as a comic joker sometimes. As much as I am happy go lucky, there are a number of people who will see me as complicated, complex or even cocky. Some see me as a person who worry and find trouble, some see me as carefree and troubless. To be frank, I am only human. I do feel both ways and on many occasion, wish that people could see my vulnerable side.

So yes I am emotional because I am a Leo. And yes to the fact to that I still think I am a boy although I had change the way I see myself after my 26th birthday. In comparison, I am definitely someone who stresses on success. Ever since young, my family is below average both income earnings (which translate to stability and growth for spending) and education (none in my family - before me graduated from Uni before). With my weak english command 7 years ago, I have push myself hard enough in the past years to improve not only my english but mentality in dealing with conflict as well as graduating recently with an MBA. All to sharpen my own skills and then found a new interest ... in learning

So I am taking up a sport soon which is most likely Tennis since my first choice of wakeboarding is too expensive. I do have expensive hobbies and taste, which is a proven track record in my history of shopping, selecting partner (not like as if I have more than two) and also interest. My favourite fashion brand is no doubt Burberry and Prada. I do have a fetish for formal wear and accessories. I find that a man's jewelry is no doubt the watch and diamonds are always man's best friend too if wore and used correctly. Subtle and Vintage is in my dictionary for fashion and Noah Mills is my all time favourite model. That said, I hardly use perfume and my last count - I had 30 shirts, 14 slacks, 42 polo tees, 13 jeans and 4 khakis. I rather not count my t-shirts.

On the contrary, I am gadget bonkers. Do not know the difference between cables, power adapters and any techky stuff. That is because both my EX and best friend are Tech people. So I rest on my laurels. Spare me the look, but because I like expensive stuff ... I tend to be more aesthetic than practical, something I deemed important. To make matter worst, I do not have FB but I do have a tweeter and blog account. I do have both Mac and PC but somehow never an ipod. I do have an iphone which I talk to everyday because I love it but never ever que for anything ... that includes food.

My favourite food are usually cooked and fragrant. Although often switched about, the ranks are quite consistent with most-least : Korean, Malay, Thai, Indian, Spanish, Italian and Japanese. I do not eat strawberries, beef and only recently begin to taste duck meat after Beijing trip. Am extremely into Pork. Tea person, Juice over Coffee and usually will snack peanut butter sandwich before I sleep. A hot mug of milo always makes me smile

I cannot sleep with an empty stomach and extremely shy if there is an absence of aircond because I sweat easily. Had wet a number of beds and feel extremely embarrassed about it when I overnight at friend's place. I usually weep quietly and hate myself for doing so by quietly sitting at the corner of the bed, waiting for the sheets to dry. Since I occasionally have severe short-term insomnia, I am used to being zombified for the next day. But I try to avoid that as I am quite hyper and lack of sleep only will force fatigue to hit me harder the next day. So, I tend to shower before I sleep and love a bathroom with rainshower and human massage. :-)

I stop smoking because I kept a promise to a person and I started drinking more than usual these days. I do not adore beer and prefer whites over reds. I like dancing and will try to end up in the club more often but a quiet jazz night or live band is always welcome in between weeks. I contrast myself very much. I grew up with Disney Cartoons and am still a big fan over them. I love ruthless bloody game where screen are splattered with blood. Contrast.

I really do not know what else to write but that I am a person probably with very interesting lifestyle and friends. I am a mummy's boy and somehow, I like that. My mum is definitely my idol and hero! So I think I am going to like to be someone's boy one day. Loved and Spoiled they said. Till then, I am going to eat my peanut butter sandwich alone and crossing fingers that one day I get to make two slice, one for me ... one for the other

ps - happy 700th post?

On Life ... 2011

2011-10-10T00:36:00.005+08:00

It has been quite exhausting these few days. I anticipated the day my emotions will run still and it did a few hours back. I had a mental block so empty and void that even my eyes are starting to blur. Just a quick recap ...

On Work

I finalize the liquidation process today and all that is left is to consolidate the final amount and account it for boss to verify. I finally understand how tired and lonesome it gets when you have to single-hand manage an entire project. I don't ever think I want to work alone again ...

Then there is the prospect of future. Choices that one has to made. Opportunity cost that requires sacrifice. There are doubts, but are they just doubts-per say or just my own made-up worries? One is not able to forecast or evaluate a decision logically then had to rely on friends support and advise. Most of them have given a say and majority supports the idea. But why do I still feel ... indifferent? How much reassurance do I need to get or am I just being insecurely silly?

These voices have been giving me a headache and often it feels like vertigo

On my MBA life

I wouldn't say it ended because I do still get calls from my current colleagues who are persuing the course for advise. Sometimes I wonder why would they call me for them? What are the local tutors really doing? I understand certain courses are difficult to grasp but having one of the top students (scorer!) to complain and ask me for advise ... Hmmm that rings an alarm

Has the standards depreciated so much until seniors are required for guidance? In the midst of my qualms and personal struggle, and as much as I wanna avoid-take-a-break from UNI, I agreed to helping colleagues for the course and assignment. Not by contribution but by support. Alumni? Hmmm

On Friendship

I have great friends definitely all around. Each different generation (20-30s, 30-40s, 40-50s) and with different backgrounds, lifestyles and some very interesting communication habits had been showering me with support and advise. In my lowest form of self motivation and doubt, each of them had taken time to lend a helping hand and ears. I thank those who made tremendous efforts to visualise and take my problem into their own account. Nothing can describe how much I greatly appreciate the gesture. You guys know who you are, whether it is through chat, tweet or whatsapp ... you guys are loved. deeply

Also, I have become close to zombified with the idea that weekends are all packed up this coming month. Either traveling or attending people's happy day - let it be wedding, birthday or someone's open house. To be honest, I am so not in the mood. Having schedules clashing with certain events certainly squeeze juices off your brain. I now understand why you should go the distant for certain friends, it is only because they do so too.

On Healthy Living

Either than having my schedule packed up these few days, I literally only went to gym probably twice in the last 2 weeks. Although I get the luxury of muscle building during the liquidation exercise, I don't think it is effective. So, it is back to gym ... again ... and hopefully, more frequent

Then there is the new learning of GMO, harvesting yogurt from kefir or are they different? and vowing to quickly pick up a sport before I procrastinate and let the idea die. Talking about dying, I actually resurrected my long-time sport - Bowling. I didn't know that I could still play. I mean either than the occasional bowling activity with the MBA mates, I hardly step into any bowling alleys these day. But just that day, I played 6 games in a row ... all above average.

Some may say bowling is not a sport, but the stress and sweat I go through in the sport is equivalent to any contact sport. YES! I GET STRESSED UP IN BOWLING

On love

Kinda sad in this department. I mean, not to be depressing and all but after almost 20 months and still single, am I resting on my laurels or am I just irrelevant in the dating KPI? It would be nice to have someone to share my thoughts and situation with especially these few days. All the tiresome, shoulder strain (sign of stress) and emptiness could really use some tender loving care. After all, love does cushion off stress and definitely having someone important to support and lift you up is enlightening. No?

Damn, I need a rebound ...

On family

Mum looks older these days. She had been working very hard these few years to keep things afloat and because of that, I had this protective shield over her. Whenever she feels vulnerable or get hurt, I swore by her side to shield and kill. These days, she is happier but occasionally she gets over worried about many stuff out of her control. Like the idea that her daughters are growing up too quickly, the god son that she love is quite distant apart now, the mistakes she made in her business calling, the nuisance a husband can cause nearing to retirement, the hope and dream that has to be put on hold due to valid reasons, the responsibility a woman has to upheld for family, passion and her commitment to provide. Goodness, know I know where all her grey strands came from. I swore to help ease her stress load ... but I adore and salute her determination to brave through

Tikus on the other hand (my lovely dog) has shed many conversation and light into the family. I believe after me, she is the most loved. LOL

...

So that is about life for now. I gotta grab some sleep, been so exhausted these few days - ever since I went to Spore - fall sick - came back and had everything settled for the week only to know that more is coming in the week... Life ...

Rainie Yang - Dai Wo Zou

2011-10-05T20:03:00.001+08:00

Mei ci wo zong yi ge ren zouJiao cha lu kou zi ji sheng huo
Zhe ci ni que shuo dai wo zou
Mou ge jiao luo jiu ni he wo

Xiang tu rang zhua jin hua de mi huo
Xiang tian kong chan mian yu de xiong yong
Zai ni de sheng hou
Jin shen de bu fa mei ge bei ying
Mei ge chang jing
Dou you fa guo de meng

Dai wo zou
Dao yao yuan de yi hou
Dai zou wo
Yi ge ren zi zhuan de ji mo

Dai wo zou
Jiu suan wo de ai ni de zi you
Dou jiang cheng wei pao mo
Wo bu pa
Dai wo zou

Mei ci wo zong du zi yuan zou
Bao chi cheng mo bu zhou mei tou
Zhe ci ni que shuo yi qi zou
Ru ci wen rou cong ci yi hou

Xiang tu rang zhua jin hua de mi huo
Xiang tian kong chan mian yu de xiong yong
Zai ni de sheng hou
Jin shen de bu fa mei ge bei ying
Mei ge chang jing
Dou you fa guo de meng

Dai wo zou
Dao yao yuan de yi hou
Dai zou wo
Yi ge ren zi zhuan de ji mo

Dai wo zou
Jiu suan wo de ai ni de zi you
Dou jiang cheng wei pao mo
Wo bu pa
Dai wo zou

Bai mang liu guo qi hei jin tou
Hu sha xi lai lan hua zhuan dong
Yun zai hai an jie cheng le mo
Cheng wei cao xiang cao yuan qi zhong
You zai chuan lai yi di cai hong
Ke zai xin zhong yuan dai zhe mai bo

Dai wo zou
Dao yao yuan de yi hou
Dai zou wo
Yi ge ren zi zhuan de ji mo

Dai wo zou
Jiu suan wo de ai ni de zi you
Dou jiang cheng wei pao mo
Wo bu pa
Dai wo zou

Dai wo zou
Jiu suan wo de ai ni de zi you
Dou jiang cheng wei pao mo
Dai wo zou

Difference - a form of expectations

2011-10-03T00:44:00.005+08:00

There are always two side of things. How you look at particular issue, and the person looks back differently. It could also be how both of you look at a similar occasion with different views. Then, there is the difference responses one could react to the many different outcome of a particular occurrence. Differentiation they say add spice into life. And so they say many things ...

Lets just put that into a real case example?

When someone you love sneezes in front of you. What do you do?

You may have him moving away from you, shy and fearing the spread of a virus that could potentially ruin his plan or anticipation of a packed work schedule.

You may have him looking at you, worried sick and yet do not know why after the amount of TLC his been showering you, you ain't getting better yet

Many would pick the latter option. To have someone deeply care for you. Of course, that is like the best option but we don't always the best desired options do we? In many occasions, this is where the spice starts to hurt (ok that is a bit too dramatic), lets mellow it down ... spice starts to sting. How do you know a person really cares about you in the different way they react? Are we all govern only to one perspective of life? Or are we just melancholic in demand from others due to the marginalized value of partnership thanks to movies and drama series?

If you understand the differentiation definition, then it would be easier for the matter. It has something to do with expectations. Personal expectations to be exact. The matter of fact lies straight in your face, different people react and deal with things differently. FACT! VINITO. No theory needed. And since each individual is different, they are entitled to their own rights of reaction and doing. But when a couple comes into considerations, when and where does the line is drawn? Do we book keep and list the concerns and then update them quarterly?

Take a step back and you will soon realize that the flexibility in differentiation traits allow (or boldly to grant rights) for people to act the way they want to. Even if they are just bastards. Lamely put of course. So if you are in a relationship (or soon to be one), please remember that it involves the other party.

You can laugh about it but you will be surprise how much this trait particularly ruin relationships, reverse friendships and never the less, build up hostility within couples. Differentiation if ignored can lead to massive gunny-sacking of discomfort that could lead to things each other will regret. So if you are in a relationship and this becomes an expectation, be sure to be open about it. Share the similarity that couples can relate to and minimize differentiation if it causes misfit. Put aside that ego and talk things out. It may be a small issue, but still an issue.

Often research found that couple arguments are caused by silence and expectations. Most of the time, if couples can actually let out their guts (please do not redefine this in any "final destination" way), you will be able to find a fruitful discussion about expectations. Always remember to keep a clear concise mind about finding the balance (or a solution even better) to the problem. By tackling expectations, one needs to understand difference. By understanding difference, one then can embrace the polarity and magnitude of mixed affect and effect. I don't make sense do I? Simply put, just be open about things regardless of answers if you think difference is what makes you guys special.

The act itself isn't gonna be good enough to cause a cold war, especially in a solid relationship. It takes more than that to rock and cause havoc in a relationship. The intention and reasoning that is being put to the reaction deserves as much attention. On most occasion, "is why did you do that ! you know i hate it or don't like it" that leads to people throwing plates or using car keys to cut themselves. Therefore, it if is that bothering and annoying ... you gotta talk it out. In proper way, professional way - communicate. Not blabber and complain but ask, explain and then feedback. Vice versa. Make your partner sit down and do it.

So the next time you sneeze and your partner moves away. Boldy ask him, what's on his mind? Be open about the answer he is about to bomb back at you. Then tell him how you feel and so forth and what you expect. If he can't fulfill it, then is it worth throwing plates? Or better still cut him with the keys!? It is absolutely all right to be logical and remember if you embrace difference, you gotta put up to it! Nothing comes free ... flush that emo part of you if your partner couldn't care less.

And if you sneeze and your partner comes up to you, hug you and starts worrying like a cute puppy. Have sex. Good sex and pass him the germs. LOL

Cycling Trip in Spore

2011-10-01T23:05:00.010+08:00

Since I am down with a flu fever, Marc advised that I do more healthy stuff and skip any activities in Spore that involve spending money or just bad for health. So, what we did was cycle from Kallang Bay to Marina Bay Sands to watch the famous laser water fountain show. The trip to and back took 2 hours plus.

Our trip begin near Kallang Bay, near to his residence Citylights at Lavender

Then we tested my camera to see if can capture the dark scenery. boleh la ...

so we begin our trip ... pedal pedal !

To our surprise, the F1 tracks were open ... so we adventurously cycle through it

Then after 25 minutes, we are underneath the DNA bridge (is it?) at MBS

Cun leh! My favourite photograph

Of course, we got to see the flyer too ...

To MBS! Marcus

Of course, I must take a pic also lo

Me with the Spore financial district skyline view waiting for the laser show

Laser show, water + lights + music ... see the lady with the harp?

I must say it was impressive. So amazing lo

water fountain ... that one i am not surprise or awe

but when the combine motion, music and lights, its like WOW!!!

Top with a story line or short film, it was so nice ... I got front seat view too!

I like this the most, the eagle laser flying through the water works

Finale! KA BOOM ... with fire! I wonder if they have budget for fireworks? LOL

So the next show is at 930pm, but sudah hungry

So we both took the last picture and cycle home

Anyway, I do feel a bit better now. I just need a bit of rest and hopefully by Monday I will feel better ...

MC in town, packed up week

2011-09-19T00:02:00.003+08:00

Another new week is starting. I have a close friend in town for the next few days. It would be also the week where I have to juggle some fair amount of work, play and study. This week will prove either a builder or breaker for me and I have high intentions to get to where I insist and perceived to be.

Work has it all. My end of employment is coming to near, and it would be such a great learning experience for me to help liquify assets from my company. Dealing with suppliers, potential buyers and literally a move to empty our entire establishment alone is not going to be easy. I do have some help and advise, certain support from friends too but nevertheless the bulk of work, report and stress still lingers.

Then there is Play! The usual balance between spending time w friends and having personal me time. No doubt it is play, it still requires time and resources and with what is coming in the next few days, it will be important for me to juggle time and manage them well to maximise the output. One thing I can count on is that my friends have no high expectations of myself, but how come I am so highly tensed up to ensure the perfect fit and experience comes into play?

Study of course is inevitable as my FINAL EXAM is just around the corner. Have I started revision? Only 20% ... but with approximately 5 days away, and looking at my schedule - I need to really slot in time to flip through the thick 400 pages text book. No to mentioned that my extra readings are not even done yet. I really hope I do not fail this exam ... I really want to complete this milestone and just proudly walkaway. No re-sit of exam, No complications and definitely NO MORE SAT,SUN CLASSES!

Not to mentioned other "ad-hoc" stuff that is lined up too, like family commitments and all. Then, my insomnia seem to be getting worse, and more frequent ... which is not exactly helping my recovery for my eyes. Last but not least is also the fact that things to pop up last minute and kinda steal time away from you. With all the packed schedule, I cannot imagine how last minute changes of stuff will do to me. Wao! Things just need to come all at one time ya?

...

Peace finally. Time to head to bed cos it would be a long week ahead ... and MC, thank you so much for this gift ...

It means a lot when you see detailed efforts are put into actions. You shouldn't have but I can feel your sincerity. Definitely a good pat on the back and a hair rub. Am so thrilled and happy you have someone to share your life with now because you deserve every bit of it you lion !!! Hugs

What am I doing

2011-09-16T22:23:00.003+08:00

Never the day I thought I would receive a compliment on my writing. Come on, I have tons (or is it tones???) of writing errors engulfing the entire english syllabus in comprehension, sentence structure, grammar and nevertheless vocabulary. So a compliment now and then boosted my ego. So I've decided to drop a poison meaningless post on my blog to literally kill you guys who are reading this.

Anyway, have anyone noticed that it has been extremely quiet today? It's kinda like a public holiday, quite long to say since it goes across the weekend but no one seem to make a big hoohaa about the sales or malls. I was at KLCC and to be frank, it was not as bustling and busy as I expected it to be.

After shopping for a plain tee at UQ for just RM10 a piece and buying oral hygiene stuff for mum at Guardian, I spent most of my days reading through case study for my finals next week. I should be jumping in joy, but some how I feel again ... put down. lay down. or maybe just down.

perhaps it is the fact that my eyes are healing. perhaps it is the weather ever so mellow and gloomy. perhaps it is the absence of exercise and gym. perhaps it is the way I've spent my time being so unproductive and literally expecting too much.

perhaps perhaps

Ok la ... nothing to write.

Sept 14th

2011-09-15T16:53:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I drove around town. I let the window down and enjoyed the quiet breeze late night. It was like a fast train of memories. I remember many years back, on the same day ... I had my wings clipped and was literally shattered. I sat in my car, broke into pieces while others were worried sick. It was the day of hopelessness and fragility. Hurt

Then yesterday, coincidentally memories flashed by. I thought, how I have grown and breakaway. How life has been so different. How life was no longer about crying. How life has exploded

The nights where I sing myself to sleep, wondering why he never understood and called was no longer an issue. Life do suck without him. Honestly. Well mistakes both of us made.

That said, coincidentally yesterday Kelly Clarkson release her album cover too!

Haha ... random thoughts eh? I really can't wait for her album to come ... and meet her too! oh my ...

Bye bye glasses

2011-09-14T17:09:00.007+08:00

I believe I had one of the weirdest moment. EVER. It happened a few days ago but well, I rather put you guys in suspense because it is rather private. Just wanted to tease some of the readers here, but you know who you are and thank you ... thank you so much for making the effort.

And so this post is about vanity.

I finally had my lasek, lasik or laser whatever the medical jargons used to describe the traumatic experience of lying on the operation bed having a thin slice of cornea flipped, then shot with laser lights and then placed back ... I describe them to MK as Black Eyed Pea Music Video experience, upclose personal and macro! He laughed.

The traumatic experience is pretty much psychological. To be honest, there were absence of pain. Nothing to worry about. Perhaps my doctor was gentle, professional and quick. He made the process bearable and short. Simple sweet and precise. After 48 hours, I dare say ... my vision is nearly perfect for sight. I finally can read without glasses or contacts.

Just some two pence worth of advise, post and pre of the operation (you can directly ask me if you would like to know more too), not that I am an expert but I did went for a formal education session on the whole process.

It is absolutely a safe procedure, nothing is cut out ... no tissue is removed, just a process the call "flap" and laser.
After surgery, avoid sunlight, sauna, steam, dust, smoke and contact sports. This include sex ok!
Check with your clinic if they provide a life-time warranty for the lasek. Mine does!
Should after examination your cornea is too thin, there are always alternatives ... the technology for eye surgery has improved tremendously. Just see if you have *kaching* or not
You can still wash your hair and face, just be caution with shampoo
Sensitive eye will have lots of tears ... think of as onion chopping experience, a prolonged one
Before surgery, get your facial done, get your hair cut and get your gym routines all pumped up.
DO NOT RUB your eyes (some ppl have bad habit like me)
Sleep with this plastic cover ... which made me look like some sort of alien (pic below)
Teardrops every 2 hours, every 6 hours antibiotics and try not to strain your eyes
Be ready with CASH - OR CREDIT

Piece of advise, don't look at the medical bill. Being me, I actually formularized the procedure and to be honest, after a hefty discount for flirting with the doctor ... just joking, knowing the doctor personally as a friend ... The 20 minutes process (excluding eye examination, medication and fabulous customer service) ... it was RM7200 for both eyes.

The price you pay for vanity. You don't exactly need it ... but for furgly people like me ... it is better to have it done young la. While the market is still relevant. So I am putting my hefty bet on ROI.

LOL

Now, to calculate and manage my financial for my next cosmetic enhancement ...

Couple - Investing together

2011-09-11T00:52:00.005+08:00

Today ... earlier in the morning, I felt that many things were wrong. Right now, after 16 hours through the day, have things mellow down? Hmmm

It is amazing how I have spent most of the time today building an electronic japan city. Being hooked and called an addict to the latest game I downloaded, I literally was multitasking the whole day managing roads, shop sales and kiddish stuff that people do when they download games onto their iphone. Being mobile and having your best mates playing neighbors didn't really help because you spent most time talking about strategies, asking for helps and in the game jargon, sending tourist to aid each other.

I told myself, since I spent so much time playing and injecting efforts to lift my spirit - I should balance it equally with work, or rather something else more productive. So in the last hours before I head to bed, I read. Personal Money magazine.

So here comes the boring and dry stuff, but it is really worth the read.

After reading an article nicely written on couples, I realize how much investment and future plans as well as goals in managing financial is important. I remember back in the days when my partner use to tell me about joint accounts, sat me down calmly alerting me about expenditures and planning future - I would always nod in agreement, but missing in action. We did not really had the true intention or actual methods to lay it all down in plan.

The world no doubt is changing, with major trends and movements - lifestyle has been more expensive than ever. Sometimes luxurious!!! Not to mentioned about elevating it, sustaining it is a problem to many people and being a couple makes it even more tough. It is worst when you are with someone who doesn't understand and share the same ideologies as you are.

With the current political arena Malaysian is facing, the government is not exactly helping too. Screw the helicopter view that our PM is trying to bring in more FDI for a better tomorrow. The gap and barrier between the high rollers and low earners are too wide for any benefit. Not to mentioned how labour and market expectations have structure social constrains onto individuals in both the workforce and personal living, we are still fairly far behind. Should I even begin with corruption?

Back to the article, in summary two is better than one. Seeing my father joining forces with his brothers, grandma supporting my uncles and aunties in their investment and mum's recent entry into my business life has certainly help and ease the difficulties faced. The article which focuses on couple talks and plans for money highlights the importance of understanding each others' spending traits, habits and personality ("ies" if any!!!) by having proper planned future strategies, goals and agreed process to reach those miles.

Couples are better off with having three separate pots; one shared and two individual to maintain autonomy that allows both party to play equal CEO roles in healthy management for decided joined financials. Of course, debt is a different story and I strongly suggest (not that I am any professional wealth advisor) that individual settle that in a different pot without involving the other partner. You wouldn't really want "kind-debts" right?

So, if you reader are out there. Remember to practice heart to heart talk about managing your financials. Few summary pointers;

Converse, listen and care in the right, comfortable situation
Avoid setting expectations and dreams, be realistic
Treat pots and goals like business partners - the more formal, the safer and better
Be empathy and do not discriminate as each individual is different
Invest together is risky, but managing risk is often a learning process
Commit to your goals and intended investment
Always set a withdrawal mechanics that does not hurt anybody

Regardless if it is a small investment on a gadget that could potentially generate passive income, bigger investment of a home to stay together, a pledge to allocate apportion of salary into a "we" account or even just plainly commitments towards mr. 4 legged creature, couples need to look into sustainability. Open communication and frequency checks should be done to regulate changes and what business deemed as cash flow.

In conclusion, couples can maximize their potentials in investing together when both party can calculate each other fits and misdemeanors as potential risks. Love should always be the driving force for the goals but never NEVER the reason for investing. A piece of advise, if your relationship is only 1 year old, don't bother taking a 80% commitment of funds to your partner. What I am trying to say is that, the longer the relationships, the higher guarantee for safer returns. Not that I endorse quantity of time, but you need to know what is best and IT TAKES TIME. If possible, equate love out of the topic.

Hope that helps.

Now I need to find someone who have the same goals with me to start off but first, Japan Life!

The gamer and my ex colleagues ramble

2011-09-08T23:36:00.004+08:00

My gamer self today has officially strategize a safe exit plan!!!

While I was returning from a teh-tarik drinking session, one bike and car was up to no good. Immediately I remember K's incident on federal highway. I calmly reduce my acceleration and started thinking, this bike in front of me tends to block my way no matter where I go. With no number plate and driving less than 60km/h, I quickly tweeted about the incident. In case I do go missing, I love you guys ya and I left a trail for CSI ... because I will never give in without a brutal fight. *eyes turning yellow and wind blowing*

But of course, that didn;t happened which is why you are reading this. I patiently waited for the opportunity to escape while cautious enough to keep a distant from the mobile behind. As soon as my chance came, they realize they are wasting their time. I am so happy the hours I spent on PS games and Binge paid off.

Anyway, I chated with an ex-colleague earlier today and found out that she is extremely unhappy in her new job. With a higher salary and exposure in a large company, she rightfully should be better off. As she continue to relate her story to me, I found yet another no surprise reason why her recent employment was deemed a nightmare, disaster and awkwardly strange. Management issue. Leadership issue. Working environment and culture issue. Perhaps she was benchmarking her tenure with us ... well that's good news for me! haha

Apparently, this factors never change one lo!

Every time someone complain ... it is surely either one of those reasons or all three together. She is suffocating as her team is under-performing not because it was overloaded with work, but mainly because there are rotten apples the company cannot dispose off. An actually employee actually yelled and dismissed the manager of department itself when the fault was his not the mangers. Strange how the power role has changed. There are also incidents where stresses boil to a point when you see yourself buried in work but your team is boiling porridge, a Canton term coiled to illustrate empty chats. How to work like this? She ask

Have we mentor her wrong to be responsible, reliable and responsive? I believe not. She is just a gem that was unlucky enough to have fit into a company that pays well, but performs badly. That justify when she mentioned that only seniors are retain in the company, turnover rate is extremely high among new employees and what awed me the most is when the assistant operation manager ask her, a NEW STAFF, to slack when she has tons of work to finish. There is a difference between the word break and slack. Bitch.

She relates to me that she pity her manager who often OT because of her team.

So how to solve this kinda problem? You cannot actually take immediate action because somehow the employment law protects them. They do execute their work, and only theirs but it comes to my knowledge that often the work is ill prepared. Silly careless mistakes are overlooked, often causing misconduct, trouble to their client and definitely delay in the team. In my dictionary, that is a big spank in their ass. But somehow, when fault occurs in her company ... not only does junior staff point fingers on senior managers ... they actually verbally insults them. It is an allowed culture?

Hmmm

My solution and advise to her ... Leave. Of course, there are other stuff which I will skip writing. Bad stuff. REALLY BAD AND NASTY BEHAVIORS.

I hate to say this, but what if I were in the senior position. How would I have reacted towards staff who unethically and no doubt unprofessional diss, humiliate and abuse me? of a mistake non mine? !*#&^@#!%^@!&@!

LOL

I can imagine ... but I definitely will have the pleasure to find out

Hagen Bday 2011 w R5

2011-09-04T00:53:00.005+08:00

Going to just cut and paste my email to the R5 + Tammy :-D

I would like to express my utmost gratitude for still celebrating my bday after a whole month passed. Honestly I am really touched, and the effort put into getting everyone together, dining, all dolled up and flyingmercury with her surprise new self (awesomeness look) ... You girls cannot imagine how I felt when you all stood there singing the birthday song, snapping photos and showering me with laughter, camera flashes and sincerely wishing me for the best

And so I get kangaroo doll, a box gift, cake and cards ... so nice!

And so I am animated because I am happy

And so I get a set of Parker Pen ... and the birthday card looks like me!!!

And so I am with @hazzyalice

And so I am with @flyingmercury - SF

And so I am with Tammy ... more girls!!!!

And so I am with @biancobunny connie ... guys jealous yet?

And so I am with @trixiegan trying to steal her away from Ryan gorgor! haha

Group shot ... want you to make me feel, like I am the only boy in the world ...

R5 ...

MY MOST FAVOURITE PIC OF THE NIGHT

Really love you all lots.

Over, It and I

2011-09-03T01:43:00.002+08:00

It is over yet?
It feels like time stopped
I can finally cross the road blindly
Locking up the misery, anxiety and worries

It is over yet?
It really isn't that hard or bad I say
I know turning in circles and chasing weeps are just play
Running away, hiding ... crying what else I say

It is over yet?
Its the dark clouds that is to be blamed
I am the one at fault but I am pointing fingers
Pouring out and never learn to stand, to live, should I?

It is over yet?
Its explosion, screaming, constant lying
I am delusional they say, I am loved they said
Feeling lucky and alive is a chance, a choice

It is over yet?
Its constant hope, deliverance and salvation
I kneel, I pray and I weep
Crunching the sorrow, pain and

It is over, yet?
Its the voice so deafening I chose deaf, mute and numbness
I want release, I want freedom, I want the air I soar highly upon
Giving it all away, really shattering it all away

It is over
Its the stop and road you chose to go
I want myself gone, grown into another
Breathing, kissing and keeping all alive

It doesn't matter because it is over
Its definitely over
I know so
Exhaling

Kelly Clarkson - Mr. Know It All

2011-09-01T10:25:00.002+08:00

Kelly Clarkson is back! This song will grow on you ... It is so nice ... I hope she hit the charts hard like she used to be.

MY ALL TIME FAVORITE BABE IS BACK. Now I hope her video rocks too!

SkyTrek

2011-08-28T22:07:00.006+08:00

Today I went skytrek again with my bunch of mates. It was so much fun albeit my fatigue from only a few hours of sleep. While I was a high above, crossing from platforms to platforms, seeing Klev and Ric helping each other reminded me of someone, vaguely and still lingering abouts. Although it has been about about 1 year and 6 months, still at times - at certain hours or intervals I wish he was around, or rather chose to be around ...

Because the intensity of the activity, the memory only glimpse. I had to concentrate as my life depends on my attention to safely lock and harness myself before adventuring thought from one platform to the other. It suddenly came, quickly vanished. Or I would say momentarily stored aside

But when I was returning from dinner with Ryan and MK just about 30min ago ... a song played and flashbacks started occurring. It was this song ....

The song is beautiful. Sang in the modern version by one of my all time favourites and she literally let my feelings out. I guess I still love him, in so many different ways.

My experience removing this weird foreign object in the eye

2011-08-23T15:11:00.005+08:00

And so they say that its quite dramatic if you decided to slice a piece of your organ or tissue out from your body. Honestly, the drama nowadays lay in preparation or anticipation rather than the actual act itself.

I went for my full eye check today after a minor diagnosis by an optometrist showing result that one of my cornea was "mishaped" causing discomfort and so. The actual culprit was actually what the doctor today called a foreign object (likely a dust or paper or plastic) that has flew into my eye, where I must have rub it so hard that the skin layer actually grew and overlay this lil microscopic object. I cannot proceed to correct the mishape with the surgery if this lil tiny creature is laying there, obstruction of carefully flapping the cornea ... Dramatic words the nurse used.

After enlarging the picture 1000x, it was as huge as the sesame seed. Yucky and not very pleasant to have something that could actually sink into the cornea. I made up my mind to have it quickly removed.

Thus the doctor put an antiseptic eye drop which numb the right eye and diligently used a pair of forceps, carefully pricking the damn thing out from the eye. I have to say, it felt like hell - psychologically to have something that sharp so near to your eye. But it was a no pain, no strain, short simple sweet operation. Less than 20 seconds. I was good. All done

The bill came. RM110.

Amazing. Why am I not a doctor again? 110 divide by 20 seconds, the treatment actually cost 5.5 ringgit a SECOND!

So that's my lil experience for now. Another visit in 2 weeks time and hopefully then I can arrange the proper treatment and surgery to correct the damn cornea ... and also my power hopefully. Pray hard my eyes will heal properly in this 2 week.

Right now, i am just enjoying the fact that my pupils are diluted and I can only spend 15 minutes in front of the screen. Time is almost up! See ya

Jakarta 2011

2011-08-21T23:53:00.009+08:00

I am so lazy to write about it! But the trip has been nothing but fun fun fun ... eat eat eat ... talk talk talk ... laugh laugh laugh ... and probably just one shop. LOL

Our brotherhood trip, very much delayed had been forcefully realized with last minute dates and plan. A very great thank you to Li who had been so accommodating to us,. not to mention the trouble and mishap we had caused her. Sorry ya, but we still love you! And we know you do too! HAHAHAHA

Let's go white shoes!

This story begins with three boys

About to depart

My brothers with Li's cooking.

Li cooked ... awww ... MUAX MUAX

This cake is utterly sinful. The knife can't go through the layer of chocolates. SINFUL!

Happy Burfday to ME!

Li's cutiepie ... STACY! Hehe ... I miss you so so much!

Big Bro look so cute in his glasses ! So adorable ... love this pic

Mee TEK TEK ... midnight supper

Nice art concept setup ... at PP ... which is what again a?

Manage to meet Angelyn (my ex colleague) ... Haven't seen her in years!

Memang la ... Sister and Brother ... Shopping spree

Damn ... LOOK AT HER LEGS!!! She's taller than me!!!

Ini lah famous moulin rouge setting dekat Grand Indonesia!

Li babe explaining the types of Sambal. How kewl ... and HAwt!

Looking silly with Abang Long! Big Bro

The famous Bandung Shopping at Rumah Mode!

Models ... Hehe

Look at the amount of plates and dishes!!!

Bro with his friends from Bandung ... The food is so freaking awesome

My two beloved brothers. Its good to have brothers!

Wah ... Damn leng lui ... I think I look in this pic ... LOL

Me likey! Me want! Me gobble

Bandung trip about to end ... cheese!

The gang at this place which is really awesome for hang out, ambience and all !!!

I love the mug ... so kiut!

hair spa before boarding the plane ... syiok!

and so we are returning ... to KL

...

There are so many food pics lo ... but I wanna upload just few that I really like. To show off my camera. Haha

Ha .... Macro shots. Me likey :P

Disney Night

2011-08-21T23:12:00.007+08:00

Well, let's just say that the girls decided to have a Disney celebration. I was to put on Disney party hats and eat in Disney utensils that has the Disney Princess. Konon la commemorate my princess attitude like status. LOL

What to do, this is what happen when you have a bunch of wacko friends from the media industry. That said, they were very sincere lo ... actually cooked my favourite dishes for dinner! And then Lynn gotta make me feel like a lil boy when she actually bake muffins for me ... Awww ...

Presenting the chefs, Eva ... Lynn ... Vynn ... Grace

Simple gang, Simple dinner, Big meaning to me

Even Lynn's doll want to eat the rice

We have Healthy grilled vegs!

Eva's famous Paprik Ayam! WAH ... my last time was 4 years back when she cooked it in VIC

Cold Tuna Pasta... Hungry liao!

My muffins ... and the tray of muffins too ... :P

Seems like Vynn enjoy the cartoon and muffin more than me lo ...

Big breather they are not cupcakes. So happy lo ... and our hang out session ended when we watched back to back disney cartoons, having chips and drinks just like my favourite times in Melbourne. DOUBLE AWWW

THANK YOU SO MUCH LE ...

Next ... Jakarta Trip

Princess Night

2011-08-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

Leaving on a jetplane

2011-08-15T10:38:00.004+08:00

Ah! And so the celebration continues ... IN JAKARTA! Can't wait to see Yun Li and Nat! Ah ... they are always so funny and cool to hang out with. Of course the trip is accompanied by my two brothers and I can't wait! It's been two years since we travel together-gether. Haha

SO HAPPY! SO EXCITED

A friend of mine actually made a very funny joke. He said "Your birthday very special one lo, people celebrate Chinese New Year only 15 days, your birthday people celebrate 21 days one ... so spoiled!"

Just to clarify, I do have quite a number of friends ok! And most of them don't want to celebrate during the weekdays ma ... thats why it will go across the weekends lo. So tentatively, only a few days la. :p

Since I have no roaming in JKT, I guess the only way to keep in touch is either thru wifi or my brother's local indon number which I am absolutely clueless. Tee Hee.

Mid 20s celebration

2011-08-10T09:40:00.013+08:00

How do you know when you are old? When you are in the gym shower thinking about what is your next milestone in life to be achieved, property or investment or engage in retirement plan ... Compared to when I was in Fitness First Summit (probably 5-6 years ago), I was thinking about when will I graduate from Uni, what to eat at usj 1 mamak and whether K will bring me to Disneyland one day (which he did :-p) ...

That said, yesterday when I was in the shower at gym, I actually eavesdrop on a conversation between 2 guys (who was chatting quite openly - students), where they were talking about the girl that rock their bed, how big should your chest gets to get adequate attention and that they would rather play their ipad than go to class.

How times has changed and I take back my words when I claimed that I will always stay young. Hmmm ... so I have added an extra candle on my cake this year. But the past few days was well spent with some of the people that had rock (and will continue so) in my life!

Ben's KLCC w the boys ... Ming King and James

Ok, Katy came to celebrate too!

Bday w Ron @ Cava

That sweetie pie treated me champagne ... Bill burst thanks to him!

to-DIE-for dessert ...

Little Korea @ Sunway with my beloved sisters

I think I look cute in this pic lor~

Topoki my favourite

Korean again w Kenny

La Bodega drinking and tapasing with Dave and Joe

I love this picture. BTW, Dave ... look so freaking young! URGH jealous sial

So ... YA. I am embracing my mid 20s aging quite comfortably la. LOL ... and Joe, you owe me a trip! haha. Can't wait to see MC this coming Sept ... I think that is the most Blated celebration I will have so far ...

Happy Bday LGB!

2011-08-06T18:11:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to the author of this post, the regulator of this blog and the person who "tak tahu malu" to wish himself online

A gift I gave myself ... a nice dedication;

Michael Buble - Best of me

Listen to every word the lyrics wrote, the key the piano hits, the voice that carry every meaning of the song so adequately and may this song touch you just the way it had touch me.

Lyris available here : lyrics here

Must do today - Subway! Revision! Gym!

2011-08-04T15:03:00.004+08:00

After a whole day of procrastination, I've finally decided to head to the library again. Apparently, that is the only place I can effectively revise without distraction or finding excuses. So the plan for the day will be

Go to Library and complete one topic exercise
Head to subway at pyramid to get the special for the day.
Then to gym
Go back to library for revising past revision
Head home for dinner

Sounds like a good plan. Now, to decide what to order

I think Thursday has been replaced to roasted chicken ... if I not mistaken la ...

Accounting - Budget

2011-08-01T19:57:00.002+08:00

Since I am doing my revision for upcoming exam, might as well make this post useful for my revision.

Reasons for budget (also imply benefits)

1. Planning (for direction towards goal and achievement) - constant and best to reoccur.

2. Control (forecast early risk or warning) - to find early solution, investigate and improve

3. Coordinate (alignment towards direction) - to form consensus for people and value management especially in manufacturing vs sales

4. Participation (empowerment, contribution) - form of responsibility and motivation for managers

5. Goal Congruence (evaluation) - quality of budget. expectation vs reality

Approaches to budget

1. Incremental Budget

Uses previous year budget as basis. Usually increases budget based on expectation of performance for coming period. Eg, expect 10% increase ... budget y1 = 1000, ys =1100

pro - simple to use and understand, avoid confusion between departments, small change and very flexible mechanics

con - "use or lose system", no incentive, no accountability for change (assume variables are not changing)

2. Zero based-budget

Budgets begin at 0. Allocation are based on merit or goals. Cost Benefit basis

pro - avoid wastage, inefficiency and redundancy. Utilize cost effective methods. Control mentality of departmental demands

con - difficult to prepare, longer time and resources needed, not suitable for large organization - too many varies, ST rather than LT (cos more money focus on benefits), eliminate of expenses may not be wise (eg cost centre concept)

3. Activity based-budget

Activity or action basis, not cost. Assign cost to activity or product level based on each value of activity creates

pro - deep understanding on process and organization, profit vs single activity (ABC methodology), eliminate wastage or minimize risk

con - very complicated - requires software assistance, requires training for analyst, time and resource constrain may impact "real job" of budgets and sharing of cost issue (multiple cost drivers)

4. Rolling budget

A budget that is constantly amended due to changing circumstances.

pro - prevention of uncontrollable circumstances, flexible management and decision making, reduce uncertainty and extension easily continued

con - time consuming and may lead to wastage in resource planning, may roll into bigger problems

5. Other budget - topdown, bottom up, bid and review, participatory

...

Now, I need to understand and remember them. Hopefully when I pop open this post on Friday, I can recall at least 80% what I wrote.

Ok, time to go home and eat ...

給我一首歌的時間 - 周杰倫 & 蔡依林

2011-07-31T09:35:00.005+08:00

Am going to try and blog in chinese ... Absolutely love Jolin in the video!

我一早就爬起床跳舞！真得很喜欢这首歌。。。因为蔡依林非常性感。我好爱她哦！她的腿好秒条

VIDEO MV on youtube! MUST WATCH ...

Pin Yin lyrics

YU LIN SHI LE TIAN KONG,HUI DEI HEN JIANG JIU
NI SHUO NI BU DONG,WEI HE ZAI ZHE SHI QIAN SHOU
WO SHAI GAN LE CHEN MO, HUI DE HEN CHONG DONG
JIU SUAN ZHE SHI ZUO CUO, YE ZHI SHI PA CUO GUO

ZAI YI QI JIAO, MENG, FEN KAI LE JIAO, TONG, SHI BU SHI SHUO
MEI YOU ZUO WAN DE MENG ZUI TONG
MI LU DE HOU, GUO, WO NENG CHENG SHOU
ZHE ZUI HOU DE CHU KOU, ZAI AI GUO LE CAI YOU

NENG BU NENG GEI WO YI SHOU GE DE SHI JIAN
JIN JIN DE BA NA YONG BAO BIAN CHENG YONG YUAN
ZAI WO DE HUAI LI NI BU YONG HAI PA SHI MIAN
OH RU GUO NI XIANG WANG JI WO YE NENG SHI YI

NENG BU NENG GEI WO YI SHOU GE DE SHI JIAN
BA GU SHI TING DAO ZUI HOU CAI SHUO ZAI JIAN
NI SONG WO DE YAN LEI, RANG TA LIU ZAI YU TIAN
OH YUE GUO NI HUA DE XIAN, WO DING LE YONG QI, DE ZHONG DIAN

NI SHUO WO BU GAI, BU GAI, BU GAI ZAI ZHE SHI HOU SHUO LE WO AI NI
YAO ZEN MA ZHENG MING WO MEI YOU SHUO HUANG DE LI QI
OH QING GAO SU WO, ZHAN TING SUAN BU SUAN FANG QI
WO ZHI YOU, YI TIAN DE HUI YI OH

Ah Mei 哭不出来 ... last day of work

2011-07-29T11:47:00.002+08:00

Last day of work for many staff. Although officially, it is mine too ... but my boss has asked me to return on contract or project basis. Not sure what is the outcome. Tomorrows meeting will determine the next course of action and I am sure I will spent some of lecture time thinking about the decision I may make

So, I would like to dedicate one song to all my staff ... LOL

Tak ada relation one, just that they are playing some songs which I wanna sing in Kareoke. So upload onto my blog first :-P

Ah-Mei - Ku Bu Chu Lai

才知道那都是真的
cái zhī dào nà dōu shì zhēn de
爱是真实存在
ài shì zhēn shí cún zài
晴的天雨的夜
qíng de tiān yǔ de yè
平常的语言
píng cháng de yǔ yán
怎麽我宁愿不要懂
zěn me wǒ nìng yuàn bú yào dǒng
你温暖的宽容
nǐ wēn nuǎn de kuān róng
让爱来让爱走
ràng ài lái ràng ài zǒu
让你让心都受痛
ràng nǐ ràng xīn dōu shòu tòng
我想哭但是哭不出来
wǒ xiǎng kū dàn shì kū bù chū lái
等到思念像海
děng dào sī niàn xiàng hǎi
淹没我而爱已不在
yān mò wǒ ér ài yǐ bú zài
你绝望的离开
nǐ jué wàng de lí kāi
没有泪流下来
méi yǒu lèi liú xià lái
我哭了爱再不会回来
wǒ kū le ài zài bú huì huí lái
我会这麽等待
wǒ huì zhè me děng dài
舍不得已春去秋来
shě bù dé yǐ chūn qù qiū lái
在你的爱之外
zài nǐ de ài zhī wài
我在那里存在
wǒ zài nà lǐ cún zài
我爱就爱错就错
wǒ ài jiù ài cuò jiù cuò
为你爱为爱等待
wéi nǐ ài wéi ài děng dài
我想哭哭不出来
wǒ xiǎng kū kū bù chū lái
我该不该等待
wǒ gāi bu gāi děng dài
喔 — —
wō — —
呜 — —
wū — —

Power of observation

2011-07-28T01:07:00.004+08:00

I have to say that today's whether was awesome for jogging. After rain and a slight breeze always brings the best environment for outdoor activities. I realized I am in the mood for being observant, or some people would call it busy-body, a term locally coiled which means nosy. As I paddle my legs away, I notice a few things

1. The girl with the white ipod and shocking pink nike shoes jogging, she drives a Vios
2. Kids playing football, the goal keeper will grow up to look very handsome
3. The boy who needs to put on more weight because his legs seems a bit far to frail to sustain his torso.
4. The security guard rounds the neighborhood in a white motorbike, nice tattoo too!
5. The lassie dog. Stunning beautiful, house no. 43 right?
6. That's not a house, that's a tropical jungle ... cannot find the house number
7. Why is there a Bentley in a normal link house? Hmm ... interesting site next to a Myvi
8. How come the lady sits and stare into the thin air? Lonely soul ...
9. Two friends catching up on school gossips on their bicycle, I dont think bald is his look
10. This little girl should not be walking home alone from school !!! She is too young, invitation for kidnap

Some interesting things I remembered from my jog. I wonder would anyone notice a stranger me, jogging around their neighborhood. Now I feel like I am a good planner for robbery. I remembered the 11th interesting thing. Most houses are vulnerable for crime ... and I know their exact locations

Power of observation and camouflaging

郁可唯 - 指望 , yù kě wéi - zhǐ wàng

2011-07-25T11:39:00.003+08:00

怕不怕被拒绝怕不怕被省略
pà bù pà bèi jù jué pà bù pà bèi shěng lvè
你怕不怕被沦落在宿命中妥协
nǐ pà bù pà bèi lún luò zài sù mìng zhōng tuǒ xié
当真爱宣告从缺
dāng zhēn ài xuān gào cóng quē
骄傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎
jiāo ào de méi guī zhèng yī piàn yī piàn kū wěi
尽管你抱歉忏悔
jìn guǎn nǐ bào qiàn chàn huǐ
真心一旦坠跌就不能飞
zhēn xīn yī dàn zhuì diē jìu bù néng fēi

别指望我谅解别指望我体会
bié zhǐ wàng wǒ liàng jiě bié zhǐ wàng wǒ tǐ huì
爱不是点头就能挽回
ài bù shì diǎn tóu jìu néng wǎn huí
快乐或伤悲没什么分别
kuài lè huò shāng bēi méi shí me fēn bié
心碎到终点会迎刃而解
xīn suì dào zhōng diǎn huì yíng rèn ér jiě

别指望我谅解别指望我体会
bié zhǐ wàng wǒ liàng jiě bié zhǐ wàng wǒ tǐ huì
爱不是注定要填你的缺
ài bù shì zhù dìng yào tián nǐ de quē
太多的是非来不及杜绝
tài duō de shì fēi lái bù jí dù jué
更不想依恋这残缺的美残缺的迂回
gēng bù xiǎng yī liàn zhè cán quē de měi cán quē de yū huí

怕不怕被拒绝怕不怕被省略
pà bù pà bèi jù jué pà bù pà bèi shěng lvè
你怕不怕被沦落在宿命中妥协
nǐ pà bù pà bèi lún luò zài sù mìng zhōng tuǒ xié
当真爱宣告从缺
dāng zhēn ài xuān gào cóng quē
骄傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎
jiāo ào de méi guī zhèng yī piàn yī piàn kū wěi
尽管你抱歉忏悔
jìn guǎn nǐ bào qiàn chàn huǐ
真心一旦坠跌就不能飞
zhēn xīn yī dàn zhuì diē jìu bù néng fēi

别指望我谅解别指望我体会
bié zhǐ wàng wǒ liàng jiě bié zhǐ wàng wǒ tǐ huì
爱不是点头就能挽回
ài bù shì diǎn tóu jìu néng wǎn huí
快乐或伤悲没什么分别
kuài lè huò shāng bēi méi shí me fēn bié
心碎到终点会迎刃而解
xīn suì dào zhōng diǎn huì yíng rèn ér jiě

别指望我谅解别指望我体会
bié zhǐ wàng wǒ liàng jiě bié zhǐ wàng wǒ tǐ huì
爱不是注定要填你的缺
ài bù shì zhù dìng yào tián nǐ de quē
太多的是非来不及杜绝
tài duō de shì fēi lái bù jí dù jué
更不想依恋这残缺的美残缺的迂回
gēng bù xiǎng yī liàn zhè cán quē de měi cán quē de yū huí

别指望我谅解别指望我体会
bié zhǐ wàng wǒ liàng jiě bié zhǐ wàng wǒ tǐ huì
爱不是注定要填你的缺
ài bù shì zhù dìng yào tián nǐ de quē
太多的是非来不及杜绝
tài duō de shì fēi lái bù jí dù jué
更不想依恋这残缺的美残缺的迂回
gēng bù xiǎng yī liàn zhè cán quē de měi cán quē de yū huí

Regular thoughts, rambles

2011-07-21T00:11:00.003+08:00

Today I met a friend for an upcoming job in copywriting. This particular friend was introduced to me by a very good friend, someone I looked up to in life for his calm and ever so logical demeanor. As I sat just inches away, asking questions to get more information on the job and requirements ... I cannot help but wonder how successful he has been.

Down to earth in many sense, the soft spoken founder relates stories of his past while I admire how does a hardcore entrepreneur like him keep the lines away. He definitely look 10 years younger. Ok, maybe 7 ... but that says a lot already, compared to the other business owners I've met.

His expensive TagH and wallet says a lot about the achievement he has invested into his business. While he politely excuses himself with incoming phone calls and multi tasking, I ask myself that in this junction of my life ... Do I see myself like him, young and living by flexibility in life to grow your own business.

My multitasking (or how some people will say I am over analytical) me began to note the important facts from him and still ponder upon the possibilities, opportunities and risk I may face going into self sustaining business. How would I measure to skillful and experienced business owners who know what they are selling ... As I sat through the night, watching TV ... It has been many nights since I drown myself in thoughts. Apparently, its a frequent occurences in the past when the stars align to enter the phase of Leos. Every year, no fail ... it happens. I wonder why I dread August in so many sense.

So, while my mind wanders and I anticipate another late night .... I began to plot my next course in life. I really have a short term goal that I need to achieve, at the same time a long term one that I would like to start on. The key question is really ... what? I have the passion and adrenaline but some how between the fire and all the planning, I actually have no concrete business model to start. No product, small idea and absence dream.

Quite a loser since I had always helped bosses to create, build and sustain new markets. What a portfolio some says. But when it comes to me, everything falls apart. For once, I wanna be positive about things, so ...

1. I will pledge most of my time to rest and balance it out with my MBA studies, hopefully to quickly complete the course ... crossing fingers, with flying colors

2. I will come up with 2 business plans in writing, covering the mechanics, strategic planning and financials to act as my part time business ventures

3. I shall aggressively seek and select the proper career path that I intend to follow through. Time to put some talk into actions.

So this is the three thing that will be lingering in my head. Acting as constant reminder. Of course there are lil stuff like gym and my freelance job too.

Hmm cannot believe a 30min meeting with a business owner can be that motivating. Hopefully it last, but like Mr Watch like to say ... nothing is permanent. So let's see how far this fire keeps burning eh ...

Eva Bday 2011 @ Sunway Lagoon

2011-07-17T21:49:00.009+08:00

This time around, we went to Sunway Lagoon for a whole day of fun, thrill and exercising of eye muscle! We sorta predicted that the crowd would be moderate and the weather would be perfect for the outdoor amusement thing. So, a bunch of us packed up our bags and rumble the rides with my new camera. I have to say, the few most memorable rides or attraction are

1. Scream Park
The 4 in 1 themepark encompasses basically a walk through, corridors, maze and a big hall where scare actors are everywhere. Some of them are really freaky, especially the zombie guy in red suit that will act as our tour guide. He has unpredictable attitude with sudden lunges and sometimes cute in his speech. Either way, it is not for the faint hearted because the place is creepy, dark and when you go with friends who easily gets freaked out ... you tend to just get into the mood of being frighten. Lots of screaming, running (which is not suppose to happen but did thanks to zombies!) and definitely some "evil laugh", shrieks and blow ...

2. Pirate Ship
Never the day I thought I will board a ride that will lift me up and spin me around 360 degrees. When we were lift a few hundred feet off the ground, belly upside down and the momentum keeps pushing ... this pirate ship is definitely not one that is operated by Captain Jack Sparrow. The feeling of being push forward and backward till you are like in midair isn't funny for someone like me, lynn and vynn who is afraid of heights. While the Cancerians laugh and had a great time ... the three of us held on to our dear life, curse and wish that we never board the ship/

3. Water Slide
Fun when you have a group of people racing down the slope of water funnels. Crazy speed, lots of laughter ... lots of water. Its just plain fun and addictive.

We covered most of the attractions except for the wildlife park (animal exhibits) and skipped a few rides that are deemed more scarier than the pirate ship. We really had a blast ... and right now, I am really sleepy ... so I let the pictures do the story telling instead ... click on pic for larger view :-)

Me on the ferris wheel - that me and MK went around 7 times while waiting for the girls.

We even went for kiddy type rides ... what? Then only the RM75 has more value ma!

Me and Lynn survived the 360 pirate ship. She had her tears all dried up, I had a great laugh cos it was so fun cursing from mid air

me trying to be spiderman in the bungy trampoline

One place we decided to skip - the fake beach, so just a pic will do la

Hehe ... the only pic I had abs...

After 3 hours of wet wet wet and we are heading to more wet rides!

In front of the water theme park with the birthday girl

Love you peeps and happy burfday again dearie! Muax

Accounting test

2011-07-14T23:23:00.003+08:00

I am so lazy. Supposedly to study for test this coming saturday. But looking at ratios, its formula and analysis is giving me a headache. Or am I procrastinating? I think I am, actually I am.

I have in total 5 questions to prepare for this saturday, but honestly speaking ... I am not prepared at all. I should really start working on my revision, but it must be age creeping up on me. Realize my brain cannot take in info as well as years back. One things for sure, I am glad I pursued my post grad studies before I really become rusty.

But god has a great way of rewarding time and another chance for me. I am hardly this optimistic but I only need to work till 1pm tomorrow. From then on, I have a few hours to spare in the quiet library that will definitely endorse my revision efforts ... MK has also arranged gym earlier, a rest treat for me and after that will be slavering away with numbers, worksheets and also balancing numbers through the night.

Hopefully by saturday noon, I would be able to pass my test and concentrate on my group assignment. I cannot afford to fail any subject ... *pray pray

丁噹 Ding Dang-我爱他 wo ai ta

2011-07-11T14:45:00.001+08:00

My next Kareoke Homework:

他的轻狂留在
ta de qing kuang liu zai
某一节车厢
mou yi jie che xiang
地下铁里的风
di xia tie li de feng
比回忆还重
bi hui yi hai zhong
整座城市一直等著我
zheng zuo cheng shi yi zhi deng zhe wo
有一段感情还在漂泊
you yi duan gan qing hai zai piao bo

对他唯一遗憾
dui ta wei yi yi han
是分手那天
shi fen shou na tian
我奔腾的眼泪
wo ben teng de yan lei
都停不下来
dou ting bu xia lai
若那一刻重来
ruo na yi ke chong lai
我不哭
wo bu ku
让他知道我可以很好
rang ta zhi dao wo ke yi hen hao

我爱他
wo ai ta
轰轰烈烈最疯狂
hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang
我的梦
wo de meng
狠狠碎过却不会忘
hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang
曾为他
ceng wei ta
相信明天就是未来
xiang xin ming tian jiu shi wei lai
情节有多坏
qing jie you duo huai
都不肯醒来
dou bu ken xing lai

我爱他
wo ai ta
跌跌撞撞到绝望
die die zhuang zhuang dao jue wang
我的心
wo de xin
深深伤过却不会忘
shen shen shang guo que bu hui wang
我和他
wo he ta
不再属于这个地方
bu zai shu yu zhe ge di fang
最初的天堂
zui chu de tian tang
最重的荒唐
zui zhong de huang tang

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
ru guo hai you yi han you zen me yang ne
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
shang le tong le dong le jiu neng hao le ma
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
ceng jing yi kao bi ci de jian bang
如今各自在人海流浪
ru jin ge zi zai ren hai liu lang

我爱他
wo ai ta
轰轰烈烈最疯狂
hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang
我的梦
wo de meng
狠狠碎过却不会忘
hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang
逃不开
tao bu kai
爱越深越互相伤害
ai yue shen yue hu xiang shang hai
越深的依赖
yue shen de yi lai
越多的空白
yue duo de kong bai
该怎么去爱
gai zen me qu ai

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂

wo ai ta hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

wo de meng hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang

曾为他相信明天就是未来

ceng wei ta xiang xin ming tian jiu shi wei lai

情节有多坏都不肯醒来

qing jie you duo huai dou bu ken xing lai

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望

wo ai ta die die zhuang zhuang dao jue wang

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

wo de xin shen shen shang guo que bu hui wang

我和他不再属于这个地方

wo he ta bu zai shu yu zhe ge di fang

最初的天堂最终的荒唐

zui chu de tian tang zui zhong de huang tang

如果还有遗憾
ru guo hai you yi han
是分手那天
shi fen shou na tian
我奔腾的眼泪
wo ben teng de yan lei
都停不下来
dou ting bu xia lai
若那一刻重来
ruo na yi ke chong lai
我不哭
wo bu ku
让他知道我可以很好
rang ta zhi dao wo ke yi hen hao

Back to Ayer Tawar after 5 years of absence

2011-07-11T01:30:00.012+08:00

I would say that I am highly emotional and volatile these days. I have been sitting in my living room, trying to digest what the doctor has told me, particularly in the sentence which says

"I think you are overwork, your body and mind need to rest"

The advise was given when I was complaining about sleepless night, or rather when I do finally get into slumberland, I am often abruptly awaken either by dreams, noise or just plain fluctuation of room temperature. Not to mention that my minds wander afar lately. With work issues to top it up, I feel that I have achieve little lately.

To be honest, I wanted to blog about the historical achievement on saturday - aka BERSIH related stuff, but after my pilgrimage back to Ayer Tawar - my dad's hometown where I grew up playing with my cousins, I was touched by a softer, slower and quieter side of life. I was looking out the window, thinking about the same thoughts and visualizing the same image when I was young. Often I wonder, what are in between the trees at the rubber estate and palm oil plantation? Which road will I take if my parents really abandoned me by the roadside like they always threaten to do when I am extremely naughty in the car? Questions after questions ...

The fun part was when I arrived at night, greeted by fireflies. As I step onto the soft ground, hearing fine sands rubbing between my sandals, I gazed upon the sky to find stars. They never fail to appear in this little town of probably a few thousand people. It was night time, serene peaceful and a single cat yelp could be heard across the three streets that encompass my dad's little village. We stayed at our aunt's place ever since grandpa and grandma passed on. Their home is still standing, fragile and dirty. Abandoned with weeds, dusts and a whole lots of void.

Aunts place was just beside, clean and strong - renovated to accommodate. As we enter my aunt's home, I briefly gazed upon grandpa's home ... quiet, haunting and how it has lost its touch of a home.

I reminisce times when my aunts were cooking in the kitchen during CNY, we kids playing fooling around always making it hard for our grandparents to control us. Then I remembered the awful incident of a snake creeping into the bathroom while I was only 10. Time flies and the most memorable moment was actually me standing below the rambutan tree, first time making an outstation call in the middle of the night under the stars with my uncle's volcanic snore filling the night.

One of my most memorable experience was to actually bond with my cousin bro who has down syndrome. He is so much fun to hang out with. Provides me with hug and so innocently makes everyone laugh with his conversational skills. Of course, I will not forget the moment when he cried not wanting me to leave. Or maybe wanting me to finish the zombie shooting game that we both were glued to the whole day. It was really a slow paced day - not much thinking required.

The good times and how I missed them. I am amaze how the town is still around, quieter than the last time (5 years back) since I set foot. Dad told me it is only the aging who are still around and most of the younger generations have moved to the city for better job prospect. Come to think of it, 9 out of 1o of my cousins originated in the town is now scattered around KL.

At the intersection of my life, I really wished my life could be as innocent as those who had breakfast with me, gossiping at the cafe. Typical rocking fan, small glasses of coffee or tea with steamed bread spread with kaya and occasionally half boiled eggs. I had wantan noodle. Old uncles and aunties just repeating their routine, never bothered about capitalism ideology. I wonder, how people in Ayer Tawar (especially my aunt's family) had gone through years in village lifestyle.

Trust me, holding up your phone in the sky, walking around like a lost duck to get 3G signal is no joke.

Enough said, I am back to my reality. My never ending rambles about city life which I have choose and currently reviewing about venturing out of my comfort zone. After all, I just told MC the ultimate that I am not exactly entirely happy about life, especially now. Content? Maybe even not with the little I achieved and the lost feeling I am brewing within myself.

I know I am having high expectations on myself, but I seriously cannot help it. It is a form of motivation and endurance that I automatically set to keep myself going. A mechanism my body and mind cannot deny which in certain degree had purge my body to exhaustion. Or at least that is what the doc said.

Sigh. I should stop boring you guys and try to grab some rest. Writing this post in certain ways had my neck and eye tired. Maybe a sign for retreat

Kudos to my 3D team

2011-07-06T10:45:00.004+08:00

I have to say this. Even though all of us were issue resignation due to company's legal dispute (bosses fighting as usual - sadly), my team has been nothing but great. They still perform their duly duties as a team and under the notion where you are not suppose to work your ass off for a company that will not issue any bonus performance, my team has proved that at the end of the day - it is not all about money.

It is about respect and reputation. Being trained to have responsibility and integrity in their work, commitments towards their task and also injecting a bit of passion, my team have brave through the past month of up and downs, and only to find that we have no choice but to be forced out of business. I speculated bad attendance, low morality and weak performance to wrap up the last few task at work. They have proved me so wrong.

The company would not have made it this far, and even further (forseeing what could have happened in the next months) without their contributions and commitment to the jobs. We had run the company in a lean and mean system. One project after another, tight datelines and sometimes across the weekends. But no one complained, everyone did their part. I am grateful to have this team with me through my tenure in the company and with the bottom of my heart, I will miss this bunch and hope for the best in their future endeavors.

Kudos and raising glass to this team. I swear if I ever get to be boss one day, I will recruit this bunch of workforce. It is a blessing in disguise and in business terminology, tacit profit to the business.

那英 Na Ying - 一笑而过 Yi Xiao Er Guo

2011-07-03T01:08:00.003+08:00

Na Ying ( Na Ying )
Album: Wo Bu Shi Tian Shi
Yi Xiao Er Guo

不要把脸藏在月光背后
Bu yao ba lian cang zai yue guang bei hou
有谁在意我们的生活
You shei zai yi wo men de sheng huo
坐在安静角落
Zuo zai an jing jiao luo
该为这一刻找个解脱
Gai wei zhe yi ke zhao ge jie tuo

不要你眼里伪装的内疚
Bu yao ni yan li wei zhuang de nei jiu
该是自己幸福的时候
Gai shi zi ji xing fu de shi hou
静静地想一想
Jing jing di xiang yi xiang
谁会追求刻意的温柔
Shei hui zhui qiu ke yi de wen rou

你伤害了我还一笑而过
Ni shang hai le wo hai yi xiao er guo
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
Ni ai de tan lan wo ai de nuo ruo
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
Yan lei liu guo hui yi shi duo yu de
只怪自己爱你所有的错
Zhi guai zi ji ai ni suo you de cuo

你伤害了我还一笑而过
Ni shang hai le wo hai yi xiao er guo
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
Ni ai de tan lan wo ai de nuo ruo
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
Yan lei liu guo hui yi shi duo yu de
刻骨铭心就这样被你一笑而过
Ke gu ming xin jiu zhe yang bei ni yi xiao er guo

不要你眼里伪装的内疚
Bu yao ni yan li wei zhuang de nei jiu
该是自己幸福的时候
Gai shi zi ji xing fu de shi hou
静静地想一想
Jing jing di xiang yi xiang
谁会追求刻意的温柔
Shei hui zhui qiu ke yi de wen rou

你伤害了我还一笑而过
Ni shang hai le wo hai yi xiao er guo
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
Ni ai de tan lan wo ai de nuo ruo
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
Yan lei liu guo hui yi shi duo yu de
只怪自己爱你所有的错
Zhi guai zi ji ai ni suo you de cuo

你伤害了我还一笑而过
Ni shang hai le wo hai yi xiao er guo
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
Ni ai de tan lan wo ai de nuo ruo
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
Yan lei liu guo hui yi shi duo yu de
刻骨铭心就这样被你一笑而过
Ke gu ming xin jiu zhe yang bei ni yi xiao er guo

心碎千百遍任谁也无法承担
Xin sui qian bai bian ren shei ye wu fa cheng dan
想安慰自己的语言
Xiang an wei zi ji de yu yan
你伤害了我还一笑而过
Ni shang hai le wo hai yi xiao er guo
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
Ni ai de tan lan wo ai de nuo ruo
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
Yan lei liu guo hui yi shi duo yu de
只怪自己爱你所有的错
Zhi guai zi ji ai ni suo you de cuo

你伤害了我还一笑而过
Ni shang hai le wo hai yi xiao er guo
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
Ni ai de tan lan wo ai de nuo ruo
眼泪流过回忆是多余的
Yan lei liu guo hui yi shi duo yu de
刻骨铭心就这样被你一笑而过
Ke gu ming xin jiu zhe yang bei ni yi xiao er guo

刻骨铭心就被你一笑而过
Ke gu ming xin Jiu bei ni yi xiao er guo

Senior Citizen Joke

2011-07-02T17:33:00.001+08:00

BEST EVER SENIOR CITIZEN JOKE

A little silver-haired lady calls her neighbor and says, "Please come over
here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure out how
to get started."

Her neighbor asks, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?"

The little silver haired lady says, "According to the picture on the box,
it's a rooster."

Her neighbor decides to go over and help with the puzzle.

She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the
table.

He studies the pieces for a moment, then looks at the box, then turns to her
and says,

"First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble
these pieces into anything resembling a rooster."

He takes her hand and says, "Secondly, I want you to relax. Let's have a
nice cup of tea, and then," he said with a deep sigh ............

(scroll down)

(and down)

"Let's put all the Corn Flakes back in the box."

- courtesy from KK ... lol

The Summary of June

2011-07-01T13:51:00.002+08:00

The past few weeks have tested my skills in balancing life between friends and work activities. I realise that everytime I am driving back home, my brain cells are sub-consciously managing when to meet who at where. Is that or what to expect in the next few days or the next few weekends to come.

With my recent workplace having to restructure and preparing for spring cleaning session to wind up the dramatic situation, at the same time managing a 5 night event (last project) that conveniently and consecutively clashing schedules with my SMBP exam - it was clearly a rock and roll ride for me. It feels like you are slowly losing your limbs. Both emotional and physically draining, I am posting something way backdated ... Picture post!

I cannot believe within a month time I will be jobless but yet am able to find humour in such a supposedly grey and mourning period. Life moves on I guess. Sort of got used to recovering from decisions that forced you out of certain comfort zones.

Here is what happened as a quick recap of the past two weeks ...

Group presentation for SMBP unit @ VUMBA

Celebrating C & SF bday - double celebration

Dinner @ Market Hall Pavillion w Ron

May's bday @ Sushi Zanmai

Da Ge's blated OPEN HOUSE BBQ PARTIE!

MK's Bday

Carlson's Bday

Timeout @ Marcus place in Spore.

I think JL is right. I must find time to unwind and just chill. The past 2 weeks + has been nothing but entertaining - and lots of entertaining! I am so glad to have great friends around :-) Thanks for all the support and phone calls of comfort. You guys are the best ~

Teaser for next post

2011-06-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

Many many great, sweet and shocking things happened these few days. Here's a teaser of what is coming in the next post

REALLY like this picture

Horoscope today very true lo

2011-06-12T15:13:00.000+08:00

A ray of sunshine is likely to shine on you, Leo. Things may have been cloudy lately, making it harder for you to maintain a positive disposition. Today's news will be uplifting, and you will likely be reminded of all the good times in store for you. Others may feel a bit of stress, but you should be able to see through this and appreciate the benefits of the situation.

蕭亞軒- 錯的人

2011-06-10T10:13:00.001+08:00

明知道愛情並不牢靠
但是我還是拼命往裡跳
ming zhi dao ai qing bing bu lao kao
dan shi wo hai shi pin ming wang li tiao

明知道再走可能是監牢
但是我還是相信只是煎熬
ming zhi dao zai zou ke neng shi jian lao
dan shi wo hai shi xiang xin zhi shi jian ao

朋友都勸我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
peng you dou quan wo bu yao
bu yao bu yao na zi ji de xing fu kau wan xiao
但是做人已經那麼累
假惺惺的想要逃
dan shi zuo ren yi jing na me lei
jia xing xing de xiang yao tao

在愛裡連真心都不能給
這才真正的可笑
zai ai li lian zhen xin dou bu neng gei
zhe cai zhen zheng de ke xiao

愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲
太容易讓自己沉淪
ai de tai zhen tai rong yi rang zi ji xi sheng
tai rong yi rang zi ji chen lun

太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
tai rong yi bu gu yi qie man shi shang hen
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
wo tai ben ming zhi dao ni shi cuo de ren

明知道這不是緣分
但是我還奮不顧身
ming zhi dao zhe bu shi yuan fen
dan shi wo hai fen bu gu sheng
明知道愛情並不牢靠
但是我還是拼命往裡跳
ming zhi dao ai qing bing bu lao kao
dan shi wo hai shi pin ming wang li tiao
明知道再走可能是監牢
但是我還是相信只是煎熬
ming zhi dao zai zou ke neng shi jian lao
dan shi wo hai shi xiang xin zhi shi jian ao
朋友都勸我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
peng you dou quan wo bu yao
bu yao bu yao na zi ji de xing fu kai wan xiao

但是做人已經那麼累
假惺惺的想要逃
dan shi zuo ren yi jing na me lei
jia xing xing de xiang yao tao

在愛裡連真心都不能給
這才真的真正的可笑
zai ai li lian zhen xin dou bu neng gei
zhe cai zhen de zhen zheng de ke xiao
愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲
太容易讓自己沉淪
ai de tai zhen tai rong yi rang zi ji xi sheng
tai rong yi rang zi ji chen lun

太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕
tai rong yi wo gu yi qie man shi shang hen
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
wo tai ben ming zhi dao ni shi cuo de ren

明知道這不是緣分
但是我還奮不顧身
ming zhi dao zhe bu shi yuan fen
dan shi wo hai fen bu gu shen

可能在愛裡面這樣算笨
ke neng zai ai li mian zhe yang suan ben
可能永遠沒有所謂永恆
ke neng yong yuan mei you suo wei yong heng
但是我不願放棄這裡面一點點可能
寧願笨也不想要悔恨
dan shi wo bu gu fang qi zhe li mian yi dian dian ke neng
ling yuan ben ye bu xiang hui hen

愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲
ai de tai zhen tai rong yi rang zi ji xi sheng
太容易讓自己沉淪太容易
不顧一切滿是傷痕
tai rong yi rang zi ji chenlun tai rong yi
bu gu yi qie man shi shang heng
我太笨明知道你是錯的人
wo tai ben ming zhi dao ni shi cuo de ren
明知道這不是緣分但我還是奮不顧身
ming zhi dao zhe bu shi yuan fen dan wo hai shi fen bu gu shen

我太笨明知道你是錯的人
wo tai ben ming zhi dao ni shi cuo de ren
明知道這不是緣分
但我相信有點可能
ming zhi dao zhe bu shi yuan fen
dan wo xiang xin you dian ke neng

Three Boys roadtrip to North

2011-06-08T22:04:00.008+08:00

The only bad reason why Penang roadtrip last weeked was a disaster was because of the traffic. Getting stuck in a no way out highway, jammed packed with school holiday + public holiday peeps and traveling at the speed of 30KM/hour was no joke. A simple 4 hour travel turned up to 7.5 hours drive.

Well, rantings aside ... I looked back at the pictures from my new toy (Yeap I bought a new camera!!!!) ... I have to say, it was a lot of fun and chat with my mates. MK and MC was great company and I certainly have to say it was like boys outing. Not to mention we look extremely cute in the wide angle pictures! HAHAHAA

Boasting off ... (do click on the pic for the bigger size view!)

Wide angle lens! Me likey

Damn, I love my camera details and auto exposure

SUPER WIDE LO ... SEE THE SHOT!

Boys = Clowns

Thank goodness we are cute ... lol, or try to be

Historical trails ...

Of course, Penang ... MUST HAVE FOOD

AND MORE FOOD

I hate ginger orange in this tiny cute cafe, pic uploaded on my tweeter instead

Night scene in Penang hill is fanatic

Evening scene ...

I think I look cute in this pic ... no?

Cam whore teruk teruk!

Me suka LX5 camera lo ... so wide ...

Thank you guys ... you have been great company

So ... this wasn't the best trip but definitely we are looking forward to include mr chubchub in our next outing. I believe next time around, without the crowd and longer weekend ... we will be able to visit more places with a peace of mind too.

BTW, Thanks Mr Watch for being a darling and Mr Alvin for the meetup!

Hello June, Goodbye May

2011-06-01T00:32:00.002+08:00

Amazing how I am still awake at this hour. I mean, it is still early but I have not stopped working since 9am. I didn't know that driving to Singapore this time around could be so tiring. I think it is mainly also because of the weather, the idea that I have to entertain my co-workers and also constantly keeping awake to ensure I minimize risk of accidents.

See, I don't even have coherent sentences formed in this post. I really should be dozing off like my colleague but I have to finish the wee bit of my assignment before hitting the pillows. That said, I dread tomorrow too ... with my plans all closely lined up, traveling bit to do and anticipating some lawyers to advise us on what to do ... I forsee there is little time I can spend to rest at night because I am still like 80% not done for my MBA assignment

Sometimes I wonder why I took up the MBA at such a young age. So much time went into reading, researching and to keep up to the pace my peers are at. I wish I was smarter to be able to take on more responsible and capable roles. Like what Mr Watch said many times, which I have refuse to listen ... have more confident in yourself

Well ... I am now having a leg cramp. I shall continue my studies tomorrow as my eyes are swollen and my stomach pleading me to drink the black sesame soya milk I bought from the nearest 7-11 store.

Thou shall sleep soon. Hello June, Goodbye May

Don't stop the party!

2011-05-28T11:32:00.005+08:00

If you want an awesome party with people jumping, clapping hands, raising arms to the sky and putting on the best smiles on their face ... you so gotta invite Black Eyed Peas as performers ... if you can afford. If not, I bet playing their CD and tunes would do too

Been jumping, head banging and literally "fake clubbing" (a term I discover when you pretend your own room is a club's dance floor) since morning spinning all of Black Eyed Peas tracks.

No wonder they are my most favourite group today. Hehe ...

SO ... DON'T STOP THE PARTY!!!

ps - alarm please remind me that I have class in an hours time ok. :-p

Reasons for a better FUTURE!

2011-05-24T16:47:00.001+08:00

This piece of article is so important :

I have extracted it from : Damian Murphy Denis Blog

Reading the latest happenings about our country is a pain for many of us. Seeing the kind of filth BN politicians churning day in and day out makes you think that Malaysia is in a state of anarchy.

Would anyone disagree? Politically, economically and socially our nation is sinking lower and it seems we are reaching the point of no return.

We were considered to be a model country at one time but today we are on the way to become the “Next Sick Man of Asia” or the next Somalia.

Can we re-claim our country from these corrupt and good for nothing BN politicians? I say we have too. And we need too.

And we need to do it this coming GE13. Personally, I have 7 good reasons to kick BN out of Putrajaya come GE13:-

1) When BN is voted out you vote out people like Ibrahim Ali, Dr M, Perkasa and the likes. When you vote these people out you too vote out extremism, racism and bigotry from our nation. This is something we need to do as the current regime under Najib has failed to reprimand these racist politicians. In fact, Najib and his crony has been giving tacit support and approval by giving some of the most ridiculous statements in our nations history. Let us remember that “Perkasa adalah Perkakas UMNO” (Perkasa is UMNO's tool).

2) When you vote BN out you vote against corruption. This is a curse our nation has to endure since money politics has become so entrenched in our system. Every contract and business awarded has to be accompanied by a certain cut or percentage for those who walk in the corridors of power. Heard of the 10% men and his allegedly Maika shares? Of course, you have the BMF scandal, Perwaja and the latest PKFZ issue which is the hottest topic today but the current BN government seems to be dragging its feet to take those responsible to court. Why??? We can never expect BN to provide us with good governance as this is such an alien word to this bunch of crooks.

3) When you vote BN out you vote for all that stands for freedom and justice. What justice can a man on the street find for himself whenever his NCR land is taken over by BN cronies? What good is freedom if tomorrow he gets up to find his son has been gun down by the police in the wee hours of the morning? We not only need a dedicated and corrupt free cops/courts but also cops/courts who are able to perform their duty without fear or favor!

4) Vote BN out and you vote out an education system that supports mediocrity and second or third best. Look at our education system which is tainted with racism in the form of Biro Tata Negara (BTN) & quota system for university entry etc. If you look at our schools these days we will not fail to see how the standard has dropped from, let’s say 15-20 years ago to today. Our teachers are not equipped to teach English well and this is causing our future graduates to suffer in the employment market. Yet, BN leaders especially the Education Minister has been giving us excuses after excuses till today and the young ones are the most affected. So, why keep these incompetent BN ministers in power? Get rid of them to redeem our education system NOW!

5) When you vote BN out you vote against the likes of Utusan, The Star, TV3 and many other mainstream media which has been controlled, manipulated and shackled by the powers that be. These newspapers especially Utusan has been spewing lies after lies and are still doing so as their political masters are the ones dictating to them what should be the menu of the week. Responsible journalism is such a foreign word to this big time corporate liars. Their recent report on the Christian state and PM is a case in point! They must be stop at all cost and we are the ones who will do it by bringing down BN in the next GE13.

6) Under BN rule Malaysia is facing a serious brain drain in the last few years. The major factors are the lethargic country's economy, educational opportunities, lack of religious freedom, social inequality and BN's affirmative policy in the form of NEP. These factors has made many young Malaysians fed-up with the current state of affairs and this has brought about the a wave of brain drain which is already affecting our economy today. The best brains in our country feels they are not being appreciated and welcomed as most of them are not of the Bumiputera group. Between 2008 & 2009 a total of 300,000 Malaysians has emigrated overseas just after the 2008 tsunami election. We need to put a stop to this brain drain and the starting point is to get rid of BN and vote in a government which is more inclusive and fair in its administration.

7) When we vote BN out, we vote for a better livelihood for all. And I mean for all and not just for the selected few cronies or the elites. Since the Asian Financial Crisis and Anwar's sacking in the late 1990's our ecomony has never really prospered well. The BN government is planning for another round of petrol price hike come this June 2011. And Najib has the gall to say that subsidy has become an opium to the masses. Little did he realise that corruption and money politics in his own party UMNO is the real opium and the root of all evil!

And the list goes on. I'm very sure sure you have your own reason/s not to vote BN this time around. Do add in and see how long the list goes.

I'm convinced that for our country to move forward we need to put BN in its right place which is OUT of Putrajaya. As of now, I can only imagine Pakatan Rakyat as the only viable party to take over this government.

I have made my decision. How about you?

Will he?

2011-05-22T16:26:00.003+08:00

Tears has dried

Clockwork ticked so fast, so swiftly

Seasons ended

Rains are coming

Longing, catched

Right or wrong

Discovery it seems

Like religion, doubtful but comforting

Still waters

No more sulking?

Unsure of future, vows are made

Promises kept, for now we say

Sat, the wind passed

As high as we travel

Fall in pain

For certain

Yet hope for better

The root thrives

Of want and uncertain

Will he bring happiness?

Doubt

Fear

Longing

Love

Wish there was a mute in mind

Will he voice and be heard?

Still as it seen

I want the right path travelled

Pirates Caribbean ... hmmm

2011-05-21T17:07:00.005+08:00

This is a bit delayed. I watched Pirates a few days back. Yeap, it was the premier and being a fan of none other than the Captain Jack Sparrow ... I have to say that the movie was not as entertaining as the first three. The great thing or rather what I enjoyed about the movie, At Strangers Tides is probably the mermaid (yeap! naked nasty creatures) and also the Revenge Ship that Blackbeard stirs.

That said, I do like Penelope Cruz but in the movie, I find her character shallow, irritating and under-develop. So, basically she's out of the factor I ended up at the cinema. The story line was fairly poor and I have to say, the movie seems pushy. Pushy in the sense that it is a movie to capitalise on money rather than it is for entertainment. Sad but true!

So will I encourage people to watch the movie? If you are the Pirate franchise fan, then go watch it to relive the funny escapee of Jack. But I would skip it, and probably head to watch Priest, or Something Borrowed.

Blogging w Riri

2011-05-19T00:07:00.002+08:00

Revealing my latest addition of lovebies, slashing one of the wishlist items!!! After saving for a mile, here is a pic of me and riri.

I wonder if riri likes dressing up? LOL

I am sick ... I know it! HAHAHA

Blogging on a Monday in May

2011-05-16T17:29:00.003+08:00

It is a beautiful day today! Don't know why but at work, I seem to have higher focus in generating new ideas quickly. Also, time seem to be on my side today. It pass quite slow allowing me and my team to diligently quickly resolve all matters on hand

That said, having the luxury to chat on whatsapp occasionally is also quite fun. Kinda add positive vibe to the mood. I just can't wait for movies this upcoming Wed before my schedule is jammed packed for MBA again. Yeap, it is resuming this weekend and hopefully time will fly pass for the next 4 months!

I really want to get my Masters and move on to my next milestone to achieve in life. Some of the lined up are ; learning another language, being able to spend my weekend doing charity, painting, cooking and definitely picking up a sports that has more involvement than just lifting weights, repeating sets and getting all worked up because others are more good looking

That said, lets see how things go.

Hmm ... a storm is gonna hit us again. Urgh, I cannot possibly imagine the traffic jam that will resume. Better rush off to gym. Caoz

Courtship

2011-05-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

Courtship. An art of engagement one who fails, ends up alone and quietly pleased. It is really all about taking chances and letting your guard down

If you are seeking a change in life, then it comes with bit of risk and being uncomfortable outside the box. It's a logical term. No argument about it.

Many of us are complaining and seem to live in the second wanted life because of a term, we can't always get what you want. Of course life is filled with changes. Inevitable I must say. But when it comes, where you have to make the decision in life to fit in and change, are you the type that is willing to take chances?

If not, no body will blame you. It is because you are comfortable with your current situation and seek someone to fit in rather than you yourself adapting. The weights are definitely on the other party and too heavy breaks the connectivity, too light seem playful and not serious. Either way, its a ball game that truthfully lies at the other party. Often in this scenario, things get uncontrollable and often ends in blunt sorrow.

If yes, then the ball game is at your court. You now have the rights, power and determination to will the way things turn out. Calculated risk on returns, worthy the time or not? The downfall of this is often over demand and unwilling to change. Come on, its not all about you and you. An engagement of any sort involves two party. So learn to budge at certain intervals and nudge when necessary.

So the next time an opportunity knocks, you can either answer it prepared or just let it run it course and risk success or failure. Just remember that it takes two hands to clap. It doesn't matter how, the sounds need to be heard

Rihanna - Callifornia King Bed

2011-05-15T13:19:00.001+08:00

One of Rihanna's best vocal performance, and superbly awesome sad song. Am so connected to this song

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet california wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
---oohhh next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet California wishing on the stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused, when I asked you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

In this california king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My Californa King
My California King

In this california king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet california wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California King

CH - Thank you

2011-05-09T23:50:00.014+08:00

Things could not have gotten worst. Last 2 weeks, I contracted an allergy itch from post viral infection that has rashes popping out from my skin. Not to mentioned the amount of pimples that has since then scar my facial complexion. Then, the allergy subsided and the skin condition was in repair mode, shedding its skin like no body business. Amount of treatment and lotion I used to prevent the the stinging peeling sensation was none other than irritating.

Just two days ago, while working out in gym - I accidentally pulled some muscles at the back of my neck which resulted in a bad sleep and now the diagnoses of a possible inflame eye due to strains that is connected to the neck.

Despite the never ending bad luck with little sickness threatening my health, I am swamped with projects at work suddenly and with the concurrent crisis management on-going, things are already at its' worse and surely at the wrong timing. Then the dread of going back to MBA classes after a short break just literally blew me off. I am sick ... both physically and mentally

So life sucks for me at the moment

As I sit here with my right eye covered and only using my left eye to interpret the accuracy of my typing, I am so happy that monday was well spent. It was filled with encouragement and to my surprise, friends can sometime shock you with the details they know about you. It could have been a wild guess, but it was good enough for me to lift my chin and face the days ahead.

"You are so strong outside but I know deep down that you are someone who wants a pillar and shoulder to lean on. You are stubborn but you can be persuaded with just small efforts and will from another. Simple to fulfill boy but yet challenging to please"

Great words from the wise CH. Is like he is yin-yang king! He balance every claim so accurately and delicately comfort the truth in a person. I almost cried when the words were uttered but yet he assures me that people should just love the way I am because I am worthy of it. As he held my neck and said softly, you really need to see the doctor - I gave in after hours of procrastination and delay. I gave in because I wanted to listen to him and because he earned every bit of respect from me. He made the effort to be there, notice my depression and wanted to turn me around to prepare for my business trip and upcoming challenges. Now I cried.

I cannot help but feel lucky, honored and loved. The amount of attention put to understand, accept and then sacrificed for a person is nothing but pure bliss. Every single word, crafted was accompanied by action, sincere from the heart and then coated with a tinge of sweetness. I often wonder, how do certain people possess such beautiful skills. Rare it may seems, I felt something that I shouldn't have felt. He doesn't have to do it, but he simply did because he said he just love to care for a person the way the person likes it. I was already tearing inside.

I was vulnerable but yet my stronghold held. He broke the walls, allow himself inside and mend every single piece with caution, dignity and empathy. The Lion was jaded, sleepwalking and swept of his feet. Awed I must say.

He has offered inspiring feedback that has a priceless clarity and with such obvious charms and ability to lead, direct and carefully guide the flow of ideas - he is breathtaking. Daring and direct, he exudes a sense of security and blanket ones from danger of ego, risk of hurt and always patience balancing the right and wrong. The one thing that I admire about him is that he lets his guard down, by just being plainly himself and always remembering that I am also part of his momentarily life presently. There were no ego, no pride and no qualms about it. It was just a simple person who constantly reminds you how much you meant to the world, friends and loved ones around.

He was not only saying things to make a person feel good, but literally help the person recuprate back into reality with both logic and emotions. A great combination and definitely something hard to pick up but it is surely something I want to learn, keep and harvest

I must say this is one hell of a person! I not only respect people who behave like this, but truly capable of falling in love just by the single click he sends. It is fortunate that he is taken because he is able to shed his strength onto the next generation and prove to be a great head of the family.

Thus, I've learned many new things today. For one, I cannot distant myself anymore from people like this just because I envy what they have and own, a to die for relationship. I cannot punish myself to settle with second best. Two, is hope and the desire to love again, and be loved equally back the way it should be ... the way it makes me feels whole and true

I hope with all the trouble I put him through today, he will still find me as a true friend.

Lady Gaga Judas MV

2011-05-06T21:57:00.004+08:00

I don't know why, but I really like the new Lady GaGa video - Judas. I think she did tone down a lil ... although I don't think many would agree

The dance move and beat is simply contagious but it rings while it is still fresh. Whether it will echo like Bad Romance, only time would tell...

Go watch the ever shocking and astounding video here : Lady Gaga - Judas MV

It's just me

2011-05-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

If you do no listen to Sarah McLachlan, I cannot possibly date you. I am so sorry. Her song fills my soul and I need someone to hold me in bed, listening to her songs while raindrops pour through the cloudy nights.

Bye bye EP my buffalo

2011-05-03T23:56:00.005+08:00

I sped down the tracks of LDP highway just a few minutes ago and wonder how many times have I actually felt melancholy over emotional stuff. Quite a number of times I must say. It was the last quarter of 2007, my first breakup driving down the lanes in tears almost knocking into a trailer. Then it was when KY had to leave for Spore and how a close friend was about to leave me, naturally would distant himself through time inevitable causing me to feel more sad. It was also the road where two of my girlfriend spent their time sharing stories which reveals secrets that I am still shocked till today. It was also the road where I refuse to attend WC farewell because it was too soon for another friend to leave. I was just getting to know him, and he was just getting close to me.

There were also frequency of flashback on how I joke about life, ramble about work, had the best company and thumb rub through the road mostly traveling back from 1U or Curve. The highway also cast dark shadows on two occasion excluding the 2007 incident which is the near rampage from a bike and another road bully who was racing and tempted me to just ride myself to hell with him. Those incident has always made me think about death and how life would be then so cruel.

LDP never fails I tell you ...

This time around, it was my friend EP. After a farewell party held for him, I am so fearful of being close and intimately sharing emotional stories with someone. Although we were never superbly close but close enough to shed tears because he had been a great friend in my life. He had been a great co-worker, shoulder to cry on and a big lover. I remember him as my first friend from 二哥 gang who held my crying chin up and told me it was ok back in 2007.

He was one of the few that had saw me cry everyday back then and I will always remember the words he had said to me "it is ok to cry, it shows how much you will love him but you need to let it go because it will only hurt you forever"

I listen to his voice but never really did what he said... After 2 years and finally separated, I drove down LDP with a eyeful of water thinking how come a stranger then would have love me so unconditionally. Things he knew that I didn't? Ever since then, he became my laughing pillar, a company with great care and I always find him strong, cute and a mouthful when he wishes to be. As quiet as he can be, he was a guy with plentiful soul and love inside him. Under that pessimistic skin of him lies a great guy whose strong will had brought him where he is today. Respectable by friends from all ages, race and gender.

As we chated about relationship, his career and future prospect, I learned that he had his wings spread and soar higher than any of us. A bold move. A well respected move. So, 30 close friends gathered, some cried, some laughed but all in the same mood of sending him off with a heavy heart. We do miss him already.

Miss him being the guy always entertaining our jokes, tears, rambles. Miss him being the guy who always question silly stuff, answer smartly, shoots you back in the face. Miss him being the guy who finishes our food, the buffet table food, the guest food. Miss him being the guy who always refuse a hug, but returned a great one when you needed it the most. Miss him being the guy who is always reliable, accountable and never refusing a shoulder to cry on. Miss him being the logical one always balancing the drama around us. Miss him the most in always believing our friendship where we go as wild as we can, and always still come off with great laughs. Such beautiful memory

I guess life is like that. God takes the best away from you so you will learn to be stronger for your ownself. EP, it is now your time to shine and you will always be the flying buffalo I will cherish, love and care in my life. Thank you so much for your evergreen and powerful friendship. You never know how much impact you had cause me ...

Really, thank you so much